Part 1

It sure seems like I always lose each time we play this game
Even with the dope & the booze, my problems still stay the same
I am broken, battered, & bruised & here I lay in pain
I'm tired of living so confused so I run away in shame
God, give me the strength not to use - I try to pray His name
But all I ask for is refused so I live each day in vain
I try to loosen some of my screws so no feelings may remain
This ain't the life I wanted to choose & most would say it's insane

Part 2

Fuck this shit! I can't take anymore
I've hit rock bottom then went through a trapdoor
I'm lower than dirt & in a world of hurt
I've been losing so long that I quit keeping score
Bet you'd love to see me now, wouldn't you?
Go run & tell them all the things I couldn't do
I can't go near your face in the mirror
Can't even mention the bullshit you've put me through
My patience for you has worn very thin
Look at all that I've lost! Look at the shit that I'm in!
I've made up my mind, it won't happen this time
Yet, here I am, back at it again
So what's the score now? Are we tied up yet?
Guess not because I'm still paying this debt
I know you're cheating me, there's no way you're beating me
There's no way this life is as good as it gets
I'm working so hard now to put you away
I'll never become who I should be if you stay
Thought you were my friend but you'll be my end
And that's not a price that I'm willing to pay
Am I pulling ahead? Am I now in the lead?
I am no longer led, no longer deceived
All of your highs were nothing but lies
Talk all you want but you won't be believed
So what's the score now? You're falling behind
I'll make it somehow, I'm gonna be fine
Without you as my guide, my hands are untied
And I can take back what is rightfully mine
Time's up! Guess what? I've already won
This game we've been playing has been very fun
But the scum of society now has his sobriety
So you can pack your shit up & go home now, we're done
© Jethro "2 Cents" Nuisance