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Silver Linings
I've had to learn how to love myself.
How to accept my own emotions and wounds.
It's funny how we can grow up around so much love and not feel it for ourselves.
How we can say I LOVE YOU to everyone but ourselves.
My mother always said she loved me and I told myself that was enough.
I knew everything about love but not really how to love.
I had nothing but love for everyone except myself.
I remember staring at my reflection and loathing who I saw.
Family taught me to give and accept love but not how to do it for myself.
The biggest wars that I fought have been with no one but myself..... my biggest critic has always been me.
I was supposed to be my number one fan and I couldn't even acknowledge myself.
I came so close to giving up, to letting my self-hate eat deeper into my soul.
From mental breakdowns to hysteric meltdowns and Mental torture.
And yet somehow I'm in a better place now.
I don't know how but I found myself.
Each day I'm learning how to see the world without fading away.
I'm still learning how to navigate the thin line between selfless and selfish but I'll get there.
© @NatalieChilikwela
How to accept my own emotions and wounds.
It's funny how we can grow up around so much love and not feel it for ourselves.
How we can say I LOVE YOU to everyone but ourselves.
My mother always said she loved me and I told myself that was enough.
I knew everything about love but not really how to love.
I had nothing but love for everyone except myself.
I remember staring at my reflection and loathing who I saw.
Family taught me to give and accept love but not how to do it for myself.
The biggest wars that I fought have been with no one but myself..... my biggest critic has always been me.
I was supposed to be my number one fan and I couldn't even acknowledge myself.
I came so close to giving up, to letting my self-hate eat deeper into my soul.
From mental breakdowns to hysteric meltdowns and Mental torture.
And yet somehow I'm in a better place now.
I don't know how but I found myself.
Each day I'm learning how to see the world without fading away.
I'm still learning how to navigate the thin line between selfless and selfish but I'll get there.
© @NatalieChilikwela
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