Every morning I wake up empty
Every night I sleep empty
Every moment I live empty
The air I breathe to pillow I sleep
I only have memories of grief.
I feel no taste,I feel no hate,
I feel no good,I feel no need.
Losing myself, out of knowledge
Only ray of way is to disappear,
End is my ray of living,
End is my ray of joy,
If end is not near, I'll get nearer.
Cause I wanna end my suffering.
I just wanna end my suffering.
Googled my way to end my suffering,
Couraged myself to end my suffering,
Helped myself to convince, it is the only way to end my suffering.
Until I gave a thought, why was I living?
Why was I living if this was my end?
Why was I living if this was my choice?
Why was I living if this ? Why? Why?
100s of reasons to end my suffering but yet I want to know why was I living and suprised to know that 1000s of reasons wanted me to live.
1000s of reasons with no excuses, want me to live.
My flesh and blood wanted me to live,
My collection of outfits wanted me to live,
The food in my kitchen wanted me to live,
The dreams yet to fulfill wanted me to live,
Those praying souls wanted me to live,
Those sincere efforts wanted me to live,
I'am counting my reasons to live,
I'am counting my reasons to breathe,
I'am counting my reasons to push the end.
I survived,
I survived, with reasons to live along with my suffering,
I survived, with the smile on my mirror,
I survived, with the hope in my heart,
I survived with the coffee in my cup,
I survived because I had noticed my reasons to....

-mandarabc