What are you doing to me
It's scary and it doesn't feel real
You look at me like I make you happier
But I really don't believe that

I see the hurt in your eyes
When I beat myself up
And say i don't deserve
Your love

But cant you blame me though
My brain is not used to this
My heart too isn't.

So with every word
That comes out of your mouth
My head and my heart
Keeps screaming they're lies
Cos that's all I've ever been told
That is the world, ive always known.

So I'm sorry
In advance
For all the times
I didn't understand
Yeah, I'm sorry
For calling you a liar
When all you ever did
Was spoke from your heart

Keep counting the days
That you would finally wake
And walk away
Still don't believe you'll stay

Though you tell me every night
When I lay into your arms
That you'll never leave
You said "believe me"

And I hope one day I will
I know one day I will
Just hope you'll be there to see
The changes that I know will happen in me
© ruthpharez