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Believe me I try to keep believing
But sometimes life becomes so depleting and I wish the breath that's left would just leave me
Ease me, release me
I've tried so hard but my strength only deceive me
I'm weak and weary, and it seems no one believes me

Most times I'm trying not to fail, other times I'm failing by not trying
This thing can be so confusing at times, and with each passing day I'm close to losing my mind
They say if I lose it and then you'd find it, but right now — I'm just trying
Trying to stay sane, trying to make change
Trying to keep my arms open but my heart's been broken
so these walls are starting to close in on me
And when that finally happens maybe then
Maybe then I could rest a while, cus I've grown tired from all my trials

Come to think of it, maybe I've been wrong on what my trial really is about
Maybe I don't need to try so hard
Maybe I just need to take some time to breathe in and breathe out
The change I seek, is it something I can by myself achieve?
The rest I desire, is it something I can acquire only in the absence of labour?

"You cannot receive it if you do not know it", to paraphrase a true saying
Perhaps it's time for you to stop trying
Stop trying so hard to swim against the tide of life
But hey! You can ride the waves and not get tired of life
And so when we're put on the final trial, the Judge would see that we're one of those that actually tried.



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