I know not why I'm frightened but I am
My heart never deceived me before it always whispers truth in my ears
Now you tell me, Should I be worried?
O please free me from my thoughts I can't prevent my mind from them
Like the sound of soldiers feet they keep disturbing my inner peace
What should I do .... really what should I do?
To entertain it I also don’t want to but the question is what should I do
To avert my thoughts I sought
To make excuses I tried
To ease the pain I attempted
To calm myself I endeavoured
To make myself happy believe me I strived .....
Yet again the fear knocked right at the centre of the black coloured door
Even though I tried the utmost best to free myself from this burden
I can’t blame myself this time I’m innocent
But again I was supposed to be the controller of the wheel and I failed
Yet I don’t want to be smeared with this sad truth...I am not to be blamed I still stand with that
Alas!!
I am in denial indeed
I may need to escape but I don’t know how I’m not the passenger I am the driver
I’m afraid because I may not see even a narrow passage, my eyes are blurry with drops of tears
If I were to blink every one would read every facet of my true feelings
I am frightened if why don’t ask...even I don’t know, but I am!!



© Z.N.Ciko