Turning and tossing,
Nights feeling long and tiring,
Mind working overtime,
The urge to cry,
What could be wrong?

Uncontrollable heartbreak,
Do I get out of this bed?
No energy to anyway,
Crying it out but still feeling worse,
The urge to end it all.

Could this be a solution?
The only solution?
Feels like it.
Life no more making sense,
Nothing does,

Perhaps, I am the one not make sense,
Do I?
Is my pain and worries valid?
I don't know, I don't know!
My soul feeling tired of everything,
And everyone!

Isolation, Isolation.
Constant feeling that something wrong is about to happen,
What do I call this?
Depression?
Anxiety?

I don't know!
Bit by bit,
It is slowing eating me away,
Swallowing me as whole as I am,
Bit by bit,
It is winning,
Fight it back?
I mean,
I,I, I just don't have the energy to fight back,
I don't,
I guess it wins then.
© Thato Mangwegape