The look on wale face was priceless, I laughed that how he was trying to hide his frustration, I saw the questions in his eyes even as he struggled with them but he asked the same question that I have asked myself for years
‘why didn’t you leave him’
wale muscles were working again, I could feel his anger again, even though his question almost a whisper. I sobered immediately,
‘ I stayed because I love him, because at that time he’s only the only one knew me for me and still wanted me for me’

I paused then mumbled
‘you know what they say about the devil you know been better than the angel you don’t know’.

Wale closed his eyes, he fought the anger and vexation I saw in him, I just watched him as vein walked themselves on his temple and continued to, when he had fixed himself altogether, he asked
'why was the outing?’
I understood why wale was trying to suck so much information from me all of a sudden,
'it was because we just found I was pregnant for the second time, the first baby he had bitten out of me, I still cried for that bundle I never cuddled to my bosom, that I never saw how it looked like, or gave name to, not that he knew about the baby until I miscarried,the morning of the next day after he had beaten me, when I woke to a sharp pain and started to bleed terribly"

wale’s eyes went from cold to hot and from hot to cold in seconds as he listened to why I can’t go with him. He made to asked a question then decided against it,
'we have been on a matter for over a week we agrued about it, ‘I was going to tell him that we have a baby on the way, and that I was not going to keep it because my dad will kill me, l was 300level in the university then i was a barely an adult but i miscarried anyway, I don’t know why he took me out yet so I as laughed,tried to stay happy and in the moment, my head was working extra time, eventually I got to tell him, when we walked by a toddler, a little girl of about, six months, she had thrown her toy a bit further than where she sat on the matted grass, James got to the toy before her mom, I knew it might be the only chance to tell him the truth, knowing the way he took the miscarriage, I had a chance of telling him now or never, so I said, I think I am pregnant, the moment he got back to my side, he stopped.... no! he.... froze on his track, his expression hidden, then he turned slowly to look at me allowing me the access to his face, I felt fear dreaded claws as she walked the path of my spine, I felt hot and cold at once, I took a deep breath then I delivered the lined word, one after other again, his face remained difficult to read, then suddenly he griped me, so hard I thought he was going to throw me away from him, somehow his twin had found her way to us, I noticed that she was without her friend, I was not surprised because except for intimate times, Janet was always within hearing distance, I somehow got used to it over time.

to be continued........
© RUBEE