How should I start? Or just leave?

This question has been confusing me now.

It's a long time since I've written single poetry, or a story even just a thought. And of course, I did miss all of your write-ups and especially talking with my friends here. But I was and is on the verge of doubts.

I used to check this rarely. And I saw my friends asked where I've been. So here I am sharing why I am not active here.

P.S: I don't know why I'm sharing and what do you have to do with it. But I thought, there are people who want it to know they aren't alone.
Also, it may get lengthy, read it at your own risk.

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Brief intro on me to not to get confused: I'm a girl who was preparing for exams, who was living in her dream world (as they all say), and a thoughtful person. Need nothing just to get worried.

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Things all started in the middle of this lockdown. I wasn't having that much discomfort without interacting with others since I'm an introverted extrovert. It's the time I took writing seriously and made it my passion. Things all were going...