If you are wondering why
Why do I still love you.
You spent your nights awake helping me finish an essay.
You taught me statistics and you prepared little exercises for me.
You called me at 3am when I texted you that I am afraid that I am going to die.
You spent your morning awake reminding me of the old good times. When I was so scared.
You asked for sorry when I was the one I should.
You taught me chess,
I still remember when I bitted you on my birthday.
You told me "I love you" looking me straight in the eyes.
You cared for my health and if I eat food or drinking water.
You came as a gentleman all the way from your city to break up with me, when we broke up.
You run like a crazy when I got drunk, to get me some water.
You hugged me, and it was the most amazing hug in the world.
You spent your times keeping me company via camera as you were driving.
We have seen movies together.
We've laughed together.
You told me I am your lady, the one who was made up for you, as you were drunk, and you told me if I kept my head above I would make other people keep it down.

However, you said that you wouldn't come to hell for me to rescue me, when I asked you hypothetically.
Its okay.
No one ever should.
Its all of us, our duty to save ourselves by our own will.