The Lioness and the Lamb Chapter 3/ Part Five

Catherine/

After Jyn situated the two people following her we had a car to ourselves but I feel suffocated. Overwhelmed with thoughts that should or shouldn't be said and a heart feeling squeezed by a vine of thorns. Everything we discussed regarding my relationship with Jyn echoes back to me as well, the chaos inside is eating me alive. The car moves slowly along as silence builds like a heavy fog you could easily choke on. However, my mind manages to speak before I could organize my thoughts fully.

" Am I petty, or selfish, maybe too needy for you.?... Do I cling too much or am I just acting desperate? Tell me what it is that you hate about me because I'm drowning inside my head. This hurts a lot Jyn, please don't leave me guessing things."

My words came from incomplete thoughts inside my head but with an overflow of them, they just find freedom before I could stop myself. Jyns knuckles go white from gripping the steering wheel but still hasn't answered anything I said. Her face shows pain but her silence speaks volumes and inspires my thoughts to spiral out of control.

" if you don't care why even come to me. I don't enjoy being a piece of jewelry for you to wear as you please... You show jealousy and control over me but can't even speak up. You found me pricing for e way you found her, just before you left... You attacked my friend just because you had a history with her, what's going on Jyn... Give me something please."

The tears break free just as my strength broke at controlling this tempest of emotions. I can't read her thoughts and I can't make her speak, all I can do is lash out like a child. Im not even sure what I want to hear from her or what she could say to calm these thoughts. The longer she's...