silence can be loud
I don't like to be in a crowd
I don't know how to be proud

sounds can be healing
sounds can make you anxious
thoughts can drown you
you can drown in your thoughts

wherever thoughts are created
they aren't there to relate with
the brain tells you to stop thinking
but what am I doing when not thinking?

sinking in an ocean of (dark) thoughts
living for nothing
and everything.

breathing to stay alive
trying to breathe better,
to survive.

when are you really alive?
is it easier to step back completely?
stop hoping
or hoping and getting reminded of the uselessness of hoping?
is hoping coping?
a coping mechanism that helps us not to become mad?
that brings light in the darkness?
or is it just a switch that turns the light on
and off?

how often do we need to see the light
to survive and how often do we need to step into it, to be alive?

what can we really influence and what is just not changeable?

can we change our mindset so drastically, that it changes our view on the world and ourselves?

silence, I can hear you, emptyness, a part of me feels you. feeling or knowing of its existence...


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