anna: ‏you might think its silly but
hazim: ‏never. ‏nothing you say sounds silly for me ‎.
‏anna: ‏i was victim of bullying.. ‏i didn't tell my mom about it ‎.she thought that i need to visit psychiatrist ‎. ‏one day there is a girl in our school she tried to choke me and i felt that i will die i saw nothing except the roof ‎.... ‏all the things ‎...feelings ‎...needs i didn't tell my mom about it ‎... ‏then when i become teenager it was harder and harder i see girls going out ‎together and i can't ‎...eating together ‎...making parties ‎....i just eat and become obese ‎... ‏i wanted a phone ‎... ‏mom bought me one and no privacy....she watch everything i do...i hear girls in school saying mom will never touch my phone...then ‎.. ‏i forget about the phone ‎...then bullying returned again with the same girl she remembered me ‎... ‏she laugh they laugh everyone laugh...i don't tell my mom...then i left school ‎...it was the best day of life ‎...i felt free ‎.i am sorry hazim ‎..i am not the one for you ‎...you are positive and i feel safe happy and i just want to be next to you and part of your life but you deserve
hazim: ‏you ‎.. ‏i deserve you anna. ‏i love you ‎..i love your soul...i know you are passionate pure clean beautiful rose ‎lonely ‎in ‎a ‎farm ‎full ‎of ‎thistle ‎. ‏
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‏anna: ‏you ‎don't ‎understand ‎i ‎am ‎not ‎positive ‎girl ‎is ‎i ‎am ‎why ‎all ‎the ‎boys ‎in ‎my ‎collage ‎were ‎afraid ‎from ‎me ‎? ‏they ‎don't ‎talk ‎to ‎me ‎or ‎ask ‎although ‎they ‎know ‎i ‎have ‎the ‎right ‎answer ‎for ‎every ‎question ‎i ‎was ‎nerd ‎ ‎why?
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‏hazim(grab ‎her ‎face): ‏because ‎you ‎are ‎chosen ‎for ‎only ‎hazim ‎and ‎hazim ‎is ‎chosen ‎for ‎you ‎.no ‎one ‎will puts ‎finger ‎on ‎you in ‎my ‎absence ‎... ‎you ‎might ‎say ‎hazim ‎is exaggerating. ‎wanna ‎her ‎a ‎story?
‏anna(nodding).
‏hazim: ‏i ‎used ‎to ‎love ‎girl ‎.. ‏first ‎year ‎in ‎my ‎collage ‎she ‎had ‎black ‎eyes ‎so ‎fearless ‎... ‏my ‎heart ‎beat ‎fast ‎when ‎i ‎am ‎next ‎to ‎her ‎then ‎.. ‏after ‎ ‎a ‎week ‎.. ‏i ‎put ‎perfume ‎it ‎was ‎ ‎40 ‏dollars ‎really ‎expensive‎(haha) ‏and ‎brought ‎flowers ‎. ‏guess ‎what ‎?
‏anna: ‏what ‎happened ‎? ‏
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‏hazim: ‏she ‎was ‎lesbian.
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‏anna(laughing) ‏:kidding
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‎hazim: ‏i swear ‎.
‏(things ‎happen) ‏we ‎all ‎have ‎secrets ‎and ‎we ‎all ‎been ‎through ‎lot ‎.i ‎love ‎you ‎in ‎all ‎your ‎conditions ‎.
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‏anna(smiling): ‏i ‎wish ‎i ‎met ‎you ‎when ‎i ‎was ‎5 ‏year ‎old.
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‏hazim: ‏come ‎here ‎.
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‏hazim ‎hugged ‎anna ‎.
‏hazim: ‏don't play smart. ‏we will

‎go ‎tomorrow ‎to ‎the ‎gym ‎.
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‏anna: ‏i ‎am ‎not ‎playing ‎smart ‎...i ‎m ‎serious about ‎what ‎i ‎said.
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‏hazim: ‏i ‎know ‎i ‎am ‎just ‎kidding.
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