I hope you are happy where you are
It was cruelly written from me you'd go far
It wasn't your choice to leave me alone
Without You now I don't know how to belong

In my wildest nightmares had I not seen it coming
That dark day that brought the news of your passing
I wasn't ready but, damn! whoever is, tell me
Why did the Universe conspire to birth this tragedy

I'm selfish, envious and ugly angry, hate that I let you go
I never shed a tear till date but, they're threatening to overflow
Screaming out your name in the night can you hear me at all?
I ask the Creator what did you gain, there's silence after my call

I think about what you always said there are others worse than us
Even though you went through pain not a day you did express
I fist fight the air and then drown in my madness
There's nothing and no one to sit with me through my sadness

I should take comfort in knowledge that there are many like me around
They like me question the benefit but, there are no answers to be found
I'm furious they're in this storm too, no one deserves this
Senseless loss should never be normalized and forced in acceptance

I wish I could hear your voice only once more
It's a thought that will never be real no matter how hard I implore
To see your smile when I wake up in the morning
That's a memory now and my everlasting longing

Your warm, comforting embrace is replaced by the cold
There's no one that will restrain my outburst, nobody to hold
I'm a ghost of a human shell an entertainment for others
Got nowhere to talk it out and my illusion of you shatters

I'm trying my best to fight to make you proud
Even though you're not here with me I can feel you in the crowd
It's best that I should let you go and get on with my life
Been failing each day and desperately struggling to survive

I won't give up no matter What life puts me through
Won't let your prayers go in vain, I'll make your dreams come true
Though the fiercest storm and darkest night, will prevail them from resulting
Your remembrance will I keep alive and journey on to winning

Thank you for all the beautiful memories you gave to me
Thank you for giving me life and giving more than I need
I hope one day soon I'll make myself worthy and you will smile in the sky
for then, now and always, Mama, I love you, Goodbye

© 𝓡.𝓕𝓮𝓻𝓷𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓼 𝓟𝓸𝓮𝓽𝓲𝓬 𝓢𝓸𝓾𝓵