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Resuscitate Me
"I can't help it anymore!
I can't leave on this darkness. Please! Someone help me to get out of this place, I am begging."

That is always the scream of my nightmare. The nightmare that gives me hyperventilation. I hate that nightmare really, it kills me gently. I always end up crying and I am really losing my mind. I feel like I am lost. No one is always there to help me, to give me comfort. I always try not to mind that nightmare but the more I avoided it the more it keeps in my mind.
I don't know what to do anymore, I just cry it all. I am like a living dead, physically alive but soulfully dead. I hate it when I don't have someone to talk about this. My life really sucks. I guess this is my karma for always shutting people out my life. I don't know how long this miserable life of mine will lasts. But I know that there is nobody will help me. I will be forever drown on my thoughts. This is what I want, right self?
A life that no one can ever see me, life that is invisible to others. I will be forever in sorrow.
I must help myself.
I must do all alone.
I can make it, not now but sooner or later.
I will do it.
There is one thing that is alive in me, my heart.
My heart is the only solution I have.
I 'll let my heart decide.
My heart will be my guide.
I and my heart will be forever.

* Sad stories is my forte so yeah haha please bear with me^^*