1 Jan 2013
I hope this new year will make my dreams come true, as always I hoped for getting a girl to love, this year I'll enter college and it must be co-education since I know I'm studying in boys High school. My resolution today is to start learning left hand writing.


6 Apr 2013
Today is a day to be remembered in my life, finally I spoke with my neighbour girl Kavitha, I liked her a lot, but since I am shy to girls I hesitate speaking, but today she came to my house to clarify some doubts in 11th Maths, since my board exam is going on I made this as an opportunity to refresh things also to get along with her, I noticed now only, that her eyes are dark brown, she is wearing a cute pony tail, lips are cherry red, oh she is so cute, I need to get along with her somehow.

30 May 2013
My marks came today it's 1087/1200 with engineering cutoff 199/200. I can go to CIT, should take IT where there are more girls, Kavitha congratulated me, I become energetic, I need her in my life, tomorrow I decided to propose her, with all my accomplishments now, she accepts me

31 May 2013
Today's a shame for me, she not only rejected me but told me that she saw me as his brother, what have I done as a brother to her? she lies, I liked her a lot, now hate her a lot, girls are liers I don't like them, I now decided to join KCT (boys) mechanical department, because mech is geth. I make a resolution today girls are worthless junk and I'm gonna treat them like dust

1 Aug 2013
I'm today enrout to my college, from tomorrow my class starts, one happy thing happened Kavitha gave me a letter in which it was written as "I Miss You", now came to a realization, time paves way for us, we need to be patient, she written her mobile number in the letter, I don't have mobile as it is strictly prohibited in my college, they told that we can speak by pay phone only.

24 Dec 2013
Today I'm going back home for my holidays, finally I'm gonna meet her in person instead of phone call since I met her, I think she loves me a lot but not said the three words till now, I'm planning to date her out this holiday, I think it's gonna be a pleasent holidays for me.

25 Dec 2013
I saw her today morning in her house upstairs waiting for me to come, I went home freshen up and gone to meet her, she is more prettier than when I saw her the last time, when I gone nearer to her she called me how are you brother and continued the conversation, I was shocked, but then realised that it's to avoid parents doubts. I fixed a date with her tomorrow at ECO Park in Thiruparankundram.

26 Dec 2013
We went to the spot together fixing alibis. we sat and spoke about each other, while speaking she touched my hands, I felt like a sudden rush of electricity to my brain, I can't speak and my mind went blank, I stammered and she also looked shy, suddenly I held her hand and we look each other's eyes for a moment, I liked it if the world paused for a moment as such, she came near me and kissed at my lips. I can't understand what's happening, my dream is coming true. we went to a bush and sat beside it so no one gets see us out, she kissed me again and we both mingled and doing it, a long awaited dream came true all of a sudden, she said "I miss you a lot, somehow use mobile and speak with me daily". I replied that I'll try, she told me that "the most important thing I like in you is your neck, I like your Adam apple, can I kiss it", with a confusing tone I accepted and she started kissing it. I got horney as I studied there are some stimulating spots in neck, I can't resist myself so push her out as it is a public place. she also controlled her and came near me, held my hand and said that "I'm gonna tell you one secret you should not reveal it to anyone" I said "ok tell me", she said "I Like Men neck with Adam apple", I said "it's ok, it sounds normal", she said "wait I'll explain fully, I like to touch it, feel it, press it" I interrupted and said "what, press it, you mean strangling" she said "yeah kind of, but not killing stuff, just slightly and feel the vibration, heart beat, warmness and movements of it" I asked "do they feel good" she took one of my hand and made it touch her neck, she made hold it one side so that my thumb is on her throat and the other fingers are at the back of her neck, she asked me to search for a sharp point on her throat using thumb, I found it and she said that "it's my apple eve apple same like your Adam apple but small in size", she told me to slightly press above it. after that she gulped and her apple went up and down, I can feel it, her heart beat was rythmic, her warmness in neck was more satisfying, now she asked me"is there any mole on my neck", I confirmed, she asked me "how is it" looking cute, then she said pressing it'll make her feel happy, I done it, she closed her eyes and felt it. finally she asked "how do you feel", I said I don't know but something I feel good. she finally said "let's go". enroute home she told me to sleep tight and meet her tomorrow morning at 10AM at house top. it's weird but I liked it, is this what everybody do during sex for getting horney, I think it's one of the way.

27 Dec 2013
Tonight I can't sleep, I like to do it once more and I frequently became horney so I masturbated at night, met her as sheduled and she jumped and came to our house, we both sat in a corner to be hidden and spoke about yesterday, I told her "I like it, can I do it again" she accepted and I done it to her and she done it to me, she then showed me two veins at the side of neck, and used her hands to press mine, suddenly my eye sight blurred, as she left it I felt a sudden rush of blood into my head and I felt happy, she explained it as a kind of stuff to make horney, actually I'm horney now. I made the same to her and she felt happy, we kissed each other for sometime and she asked me what happens during hanging? I told her that it's similiar to drowning in addition your neck pains and even spine fractures in some cases. she again asked is it a painful form of suicide?, I said "yes". she said" no, during hanging our blood supply cuts to brain and we become unconcious, then who knows what happens, I think it's a no pain way to go". "how do you know that" I asked, she said" I'll hang myself often, not like fully from ceiling, but partially by tying a rope around my neck and tie it to a wall nail and will lower myself so I feel it". I said not to do it as it's harmfull to her life, so she asked me to assist her as her parents were going to relatives function to Thirunelveli tomorrow Morning and will come by night only, as she was in 12th grade they want her to study so they are leaving her, tomorrow she said me to figure out a way to go to her house to assist her, she also threatened me that if I don't come means she'll do it herself and don't know what happens, I was now figuring out a way to go there to stop her for now, she is at her atmost level of idiocity, till mutual strangulation it looks ok but hanging is too much, who knows what will happen, she must be given councelling, first I need to stop her tomorrow, telling this to her parents may get her doesn't like me I afraid, also she will be in a awkward position if her parents knows it and who knows what consequence it drives. suddenly her father came to my house and spoke with my parents, they said that tomorrow they will send Kavitha to my house tomorrow so that she clarifies her doubts in study with me, my mom said, here TV will always run and hence I'll send my son to your house to teach her, they are like brother and sister, tomorrow I need to save her.

28 Dec 2013
Went to her house after having breakfast, while going inside she invited me by telling "how's my plan" and giggled, I made her sit on the sofa and explained her the dangers of her action, while speaking I noticed a shawl tied on ceiling fan of her room for hanging, her face also got sorrow, she stood and I stood, she suddenly pushed me and ran inside her room and locked the door, I tried pushing the door, dashing it, hit it with a hammer and tried everything ican for a minute and suddenly the lock broke and door opened, inside I saw Kavitha hanging from ceiling fan for death, her eyes were popped out, toung protruding out, her face is like seeing me and begging for help, her hands and legs were bend, hands were trying to reach the neck and legs suddenly kicking air at times, I went near her and lifted her, removed her shawl from fan and lied her down on bed, removed noose and checked for heart beat, it's beating. good to know, after a while she grabbed her throat and opened her eyes and with a strangled voice she said "you saved me", I slapped her yet she smiled and said "can I do it for you" I become confused and sat by holding my head, she woke up came near me and said, "while you spoke I thought of ending my life, since if I accept and doesn't hang myself you'll leave me as I am a freak, I'll be lonely, but now I trust you that you are my pair, because when I shut door, you may have called for outside help, but you didn't now it's 10 minutes since I hung myself, so it's clear that you don't want anyone to know about it. inside you there is a small interest in this stuff, it'll come out one day, now go to your home and trust me I'll no do it again, I need some rest". I came back home and got into my room, sat there and many thoughts went through my mind, Kavitha, her beautiful smile, her neck and a mole in it, her eyes, our interaction these three days, her hanging face and body, everything ran through my mind like a bullet train and I slept, a phone call woke me up, it's Kavitha, she asked me how am I and said she feels fine now, and asked me what I feel now, Actually I don't know what I feel but her words made me say that "I liked it" to her. I heard her laugh and she said "welcome to my world"

1 Jan 2014
Rest of the days went with some sexy and neck related topics between us and today I'm going to college again, I took a old mobile and going to use it in college hidden, finally I realised one thing, neck is a part of the body, but according to us it is the thing which took our relationship to next level

5 Mar 2014
Today went as usual by going and college and evening speaking with my neck mate, my lover, my hang mate, actually by this summer holidays were gonna hang out, not mentioning roaming around city. my fetish on neck, strangling and hanging is now became extreme, nowadays I'm strangling myself two times a week and she does it similarly, the sudden rush of blood to my brain is a addiction to me now, I like being drizzy by this.

30 Apr 2014
Today returning to my hometown due to summer holidays, done my exams well I think, Kavitha is having her last board exam tomorrow, after that I can't imagine how happy it will be between us.

2 May 2014
Saw her at last, she is more beautiful than I last saw her, also her neck is now asking me to crush it, I think there is a telepathy wave between us, because she offered her neck from her balcony, what a lovely chemistry.


5 May 2014
My parents went out for temple as she came in telling she needed carier guidance from me, but what we done is her guidance on how to handle her neck and my guidance on how to handle my neck. she informed me that her parents were going out to Thirunelveli but she said she is not coming and staying home, asked me to come home to hang out.

6 May 2014
She was already having one long rope used in cow rearing, it is made of cotton, so it's soft but strong enough to pull a cow, tied it around her bed room fan to a window grill, one hangs and other records it with her mobile, after a minute of hanging the rope tied at window is to be removed and the other will fall on bed, that's the plan and she hanged first by stepping on a stool tying the noose around her neck and getting of the stool, I recorded everything from begining by focusing her neck, face etc., for a minute and removed the stool from bed and untied her, similarly she done to me, and we both saw our videos, now I become horney while seeing the video and she too got horney and we both kissed by simultaneously strangling each other slowly, finally we had sex.

29 May 2014
My results came and it seems that my grades are getting low, nowadays I forget many things and my response time reduced, she too is facing such a difficulty I heard from her, it's all due to our fantasies and we are addicted to it.

30 May 2014
Kavitha's result came and she secured only 614/1200, just pass in 2 subjects, her father asked me what to do, made her to join Viscom, since her father knows someone at Loyola Chennai it's easy for him, he at once called and made appointment.

8 July 2014
My second year I took a room outside campus only for myself and Kavitha is getting used to Chennai, we daily make video calls and greet us in mornings and strangle us in evenings, on Sundays we make video sex. my grades become very poor and my mind is not stable.

26 Dec 2014
we both came home for holidays and strangled and had sex, I usually keep protection now. she doesn't like anywhere to be with me she declared, I told her to be patient.

5 Jun 2015
I am an irregular boy now, I can't stand a day without strangling myself, nobody respects me except Kavitha, I'm having 10 arrears now and she has 4 arrears, what we are gonna do.

26 Dec 2015
This holiday is our last meeting with arrears, we wowed that without clearing all arrears we will not call or meet, and we quit strangling.

29 June 2016
Cleared 5 of my arrears now I'm getting stable.ive gone through it.

1 Jan 2017
This holiday we both avoided each other and concentrated on our studies, this is our final year and we should clear every thing. this time

29 June 2017
Hurrah all clear, since I had arrear I didn't got chance in campus interview, I need to search job myself, called Kavitha but she didn't picked call I don't know why.

1 July 2017
Went hometown and I saw her in her balcony, she also saw me and with a sad face went Inside, then only I realised that our relationship was known to her parents while they saw our photo together in her mobile, since I didn't got a job her parent fixed her marriage to her relation boy she told by calling me and she also told she can't live without me, so she told that till now she waited to see me, she now saw me that's happy for her, she is now gonna hang herself she declared and hang up, I screamingly went next door to stop it but it was locked outside by her father, a sudden sound of stool falling down heard inside, I broke the lock, but it is locked inside also, I broke the door and went inside and saw she was in her room locked, 10 minutes passed since she hung up and now I broke her room to see her body hanging lifeless, her eyes which is slightly visible is looking at me, I cried and all the neighbours came in, they called police and ambulance, her father was informed and he came to hospital, while seeing me he cried atmost.

2 July 2017
Made decision to go to chennai, stay in a room where she stayed, and often go near Loyola where she went.

6 Sep 2017
The one thing that's disturbing me the most is that I can't save her, she was in my grasp and I let her fly away like a angel.

4 Dec 2017
Her memories comes often to me and haunts me, I keep strangling myself more nowadays, I often go to Loyola and sit there so that I feel her.

8 June 2018
I'm still keeps on ignoring my parent's calls often, some times I speak with my mom. I do work at restaurants, photo shops etc., for my living.

5 July 2018
I now notice some peoples with similiar interests as that of me and Kavitha were on social media platforms. those people post some neck images like strangled, normal, hanged etc., some of those images were photoshopped, I know photoshop, I can post photos like it, I uploaded photos one per week.

8 Dec 2018
Today my father called me to speak about what I'm going to do in future, I finally said leave me alone and hung up the phone. He is also responsible for my life got into bizzare, if he might had assured to Kavitha's father about me, there may be chance, but on a contrary he recommended her father to take care of Kavitha not to mingle with me.

9 Apr 2019
My urges keeps on maximizing, I like to have a neck and do what ever I have done with Kavitha, not to kill but to satisfy my fetish and leave them, am I a psycho?

17 Aug 2019
Today I saw a girl at Loyola campus, She is fair with a dark brown eye, braided black hair, lovely nose, mouth and a neck with a mole, she resembled just like Kavitha, one thing I know for sure is that she is 3rd year VISCOM student.

29 Aug 2019
Found her in Insta, her name is Anitha, She is Just like Kavitha, downloaded all her photos, will photoshop and upload one a week.

10 Oct 2019
Found her home, she often found hanging out with a guy maybe her lover, now I feel to do one thing to get rid of Kavitha's hauntings, I need to make same situation with Anitha and if I get her down alive I'll acheive it finally, also I can satisfy my fetish urges with her.

17 Dec 2019
I tracked down Anitha's usual way and found this Cafe, need to get a job there because she often visits it. Need a plan to acheive my target.

10 Apr 2020
Got job as a waiter in cafe, now I have to sneakout a way to kidnap Anitha.

20 Apr 2020
Found this place in gmaps, went there it's an old work shop at the outskirts of chennai, with a crane. no security, the crane is faulty need some spares to get it running.

25 Apr 2020
Bought some spares and made the crane ready. found this sleeping drug online, my plan is to mix it in her drink and the drug will work after 1 1/2 to 2 hours only, so while she went out she will get drizzy, at that time I will use my neighbours auto rickshaw to pick her up, get her here, do whatever I can. finally make her unconscious and leave her outside of her house, nothing must go wrong in it I assured.

3 May 2020
Today Loyola College cultural events took place and she danced in it, while seeing it it was like seeing Kavitha's performance once so I can't resist myself and too photo of her by going near stadium.

9 May 2020
Tomorrow is the DDay for me, day after tomorrow I'll be free from all my troubles.

Inspector Keerthi Vaasan told these snippets to Anitha after her constant request about the Man who tried to kill her, "His real name is Anand" he added. "Founded him after a person missing complaint received from a Person Named Kanagaraj from Madurai" Anand is Kanagaraj's son " I identified him by seeing the Photo in complaint after 6 months of his death". " then I tracked down his room and found these eight dairies he wrote.

They were having this conversation at a Park bench, Anitha kissed Keerthi at his cheeks and said thanks, in return Keerthi pressed Anitha's neck and asked is it enough, she in a strangled voice said "more thann eenoughh", finally Keerthi said this is how Fetish travels and Multiplies, Anitha nodded with a smile.

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