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the last year
one day last year I saw the worst shit I'd thought I'd ever seen. my girls dad left his phone open I read messages between him an another woman he had her save under my honey bee.....when he dozed off I never in my life thought he'd have a whole secret life!!! I thought finding out about the trannies was devastating an wwanting to run away an leave us but this topped the cake I lost my shit!!! my best friend took my girls an dipped out!!! I beat his ass whit a baseball bat for what he did to me waist my time an years an money!!!! he was having sex with me an other woman an possibly trannies!!!!on the same day's bro....he caught a std an legit blamed it on me!!!! like you have to have sex with other people to catch that shit bro!!!! he lost his mind!!! put me an my kids out accued me of cheating because I was flitting on the internet i knew he was up to something i could never catch him up though an I didn't even try to make it work. I figured it out came up with money to leave Mississippi!!! because i can't deal with his shit no more I couldn't be homeless with kids there plus Samantha was having bad reports from school we were loosing our place either way it went he swear he didn't do nothing wrong but his phone showed different he was gaslighting me for years an we weren't even together according to him we lived together SMH having sex regularly SMH I felt so exposed because I confided in this man I invested in this man just to finally figure out he never wanted me or cared we ended up running into each other he accused me of stealing and destroying the trailer an taking his meds an attacks screaming i gave him a STD.... I pepper sprayed his ass I let all my anger an aggressive reactive bs out the day I decided TO LEAVE HIS PHONE OPEN... INWANTED HIS BLOOD THAT DAY I HAD TO TELL MYSELF this ain't for me... THE OFFICER TOLD HIM HOW DID YOU EXPECT HER TO REACT NICELY SIR????? I let it all go. ESPECIALLY WHEN I RELIZED HE GENUINELY HATED ME AN SWAR I DISRESPECTED HIM AS A MAN I HAAD 3 KIDS AN WORKING WITH FIBRAMIALGA ARTHRITIS AN COMING HIM TO CLEAN FOR A MAN THAT CHEATED LIKE HOW MUCH RESPECT DO YOU DESERVE.... I just gave up an left him in Mississippi. AN MY FRIENDS I went to Mississippi an help take care of his mother 24/7 for a year for free out of love. caught him up at his momma house on a dating app 200 plus women an trannies.... he also tried to run away with his ex wife a few times an my dumb ass stayed even after seeing how he talks about me when he's chatting with his family he said awful things like I tapped him with kids an he was happy I loosed the 2 I did lose SMH he straight up sat in my face an did all this behind my back for 7 years SMH my clueless ass thought it was love.
I ended up going back to Cali with no real plan after the room I thought I was gonna rent ended up not available nobody could help I ended up going to my ex house an it was just not a fit for me an the girls didn't feel right so my sister tells me to go to Vegas she'll help me get a job an this n that an ended up not even wanting to help I was doing my part signing up for programs an looking for work an started accusing me of sleeping with dudes like who has time for that SMH she started painting a ugly PIC of me to folks an I said something to her about it.... because she was just disrespectful in front of my girls n he man an while all this is happening she throws me an my kids out on the streets go Fucking figure SMH all because I corrected her about the lies I wish I did have it in me then to say I was Fucking someone but my heart was still broken from the girls dad I went to a shelter that night. I did that for 4 day's an couldn't anymore we all got sick an couldn't do it so I found a way to get back to Cali an had to wait to get the county stuff started before I could get a room for us an did that for almost 3 months an just could not anymore it was beginning to take a toll on me mentally and emotionally and physically too I am now renting a room with my girls we are all in school I'm working on becoming a journalist as well. as many other things since I left my girls dad I'm working on launching 2 businesses an I became a ordained minister. I'm work on getting us a ride soon as well.

moral of the story is things do get better when you doing everything for the right reasons!!!
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