Surely I'll delete this later since it's risky

I love a girl so much.
I broke up with her a few weeks ago, we decided to because of guilty of not to be good with God.
No matter how much I could complain that I'm not a boy to not to fail to God by being a "lesbian"
So we decided to be friends.
It's been hard for both of us, but all I want is for her to be calm and happy with her decisions.
She feels more guilty than I do, I'm not going to lie.
I love her a lot and the last I wanted was she feeling...