live my life
is easy but what about warmth i think
and keep my intimacy at bay
but im a natural born passionate person
i am not happy single
what about when i get older
you know what im gonna live the young life again and raise myself all over
i wish my mom said more of be a doctor
or fix your bank account
or dont get bruised
or fix your hair
she grew a really cute monster on the exterior
but my interior is a queen
and honestly i just want to actually talk to her aagain and see what she would say if i asked her what i should do right now
im torn
cause some times i need someone to talk to
and now shes gone
and i have nobody to talk to
ever
and my x is partying and says im 2 sick
and only reason why i love him so muchcause i dream on what we could have
but actually thats not the way to be
maybe i could forfill my dreams on my own
and i wish it was with him
just venting
and im not gonna live this life no more
i love him but no more
i need a man who loves me
through my sickness
till death do us part
maybe id be prettier
maybe i wouldnt smoke
maybe i would have things
maybe i wouldnt get sick
and maybe id get married and have a big wedding
but what i think is im sick of men
anyway
or maybe hes just not for me
maybe hes for his x
maybe so
i like that he doesnt make me cry
and tucks me in at night
in his own way
but i want a man thats in our home everyday
thats sees my sickness as his biggest threat to lose me and helps me through it
that makes love to me and realizes maybe i just have hormonal problems or whatever
lol
but he sees other things more spectacular
he never really tells me his beliefs
and i studder when i talk to him
becaause
he always makes me feel stupid
holding hands always feel good
but it passes by to fast
screw long distance relationships
right
i need him to be a man
who just worrys about life
and its game
and has his leisure
just like him wow
maybe we were meant to be
i wish he saw it that way

i dont want my whole life to pass me by

and i need someone who gives me the right attention and makes the world up about me
who doesnt fight
but now adays things are scary
so the best advice to myself is just hold on
see if it gets better!
but im impatient patience is a virtue you guys and my advice to you after i gave it to myself is give your self time to adjust before you completely move on from the laugh the hugs and the new life you can start with out them unless you want to start again with them or just start over without them hope that makes sense to you just looks at the good place moving on can bring you ill state 3 things it can help you with to move on number 1 is you can redesign your life number 2. you can go after your dreams rather then being tied down and number 3 you can have more time to find yourself so that was a good thing i did by helping you with advice if your going through the same thing as me let me know if it helped and remember get over any sad beliefs of holding on to something to hard that isnt holding on to you
© gk