After graduation I've given several interviews. Finally got a job. But don't know why today doesn't feel spacial in any ways. I thought I'll be a little excited for the first day of my job, but all I can feel is unnecessary tension growing inside my head. I don't wanna get kicked out on the very first day. I'm wierd, ain't I? This wierd behaviours of mine make me take drugs to kill ‘depression’. My therapist said I'll be fine, I should interact with people more often. I'm afraid. Afraid of getting kicked out, afraid of the unknown people I'm gonna see, afraid that someone will break the wall I've made around myself. Afraid someone will be irritated to see how blue I am. I can't...