I am addicted. Addicted to a comfortable zone. I am so much on it that I can even crush my self-esteem. I am so much weak now that I can't even stand for my target and goal. How can I overcome this?

I wanna be a good girl, a good student, and a good doctor. I understand the situation but I fail to organize it. Is this how my life will be moving on?

I looked above and no one came to my mind. I knew then I was useless. Or a useful tool for other successful. I feel like wasting my time and energy.
Even though my consciousness is awake every time I seem to be daydreaming. I don't know if I am aware of myself or not but I'm not fully in my sense or control. I want to study hard, and I want to utilize my time in my studying but I'm unable to do so as I wish. I can't stop myself from being distracted, and that makes me sad and disappointed towards my life.

I neither have any option nor have any lives. So what shall I do?

© Ankita Mishra