Me and my dad haven't always been close, we never really have. I mean sure I'm his first daughter but that doesn't mean anything. My dad wasn’t made for having an “eldest daughter”. I am my mother, in a way at least. I think my dad stopped loving me unconditionally when he realized that I wasn't as forgiving as her. I hold onto the wrongs my dad has done to me. From a young age it's always been me reaching out to him. I had to contact my dad if I wanted to see him and when he would pick me up all I would hear was about how much he missed me and my sister. Now that I’m older I can’t help but think about why my dad never reached out first.
Now that I’m older my dad has tried to fix things up but I haven’t forgiven him and I don’t know if I will. When I was younger every time I’d...