It's not an exaggeration when some people see love as something taboo. Like me, who has never been in a relationship my whole life. For me, love is just an addiction I long for. The struggle to find love sometimes hits a dead end when the seeds of love give false hopes that end in sorrow.

It's hard to open the space in my heart that is slowly freezing due to my loneliness. Desire is defeated by doubt, bound by limitations. As a result, befriending sadness becomes my choice on Saturday nights. While youths are busy making out, enjoying romance as sweet as honey, I am trapped in jealousy. This feeling is very disturbing because a winding path blocks my love.

Hundreds of full moons have passed, accompanying my lonely soul. Now I choose to wait for where fate will take my love story. I long for a warm figure beside me. Someone who is grateful for my presence and willing to balance all my traits. For me, physical beauty is not the determinant, but the sincerity of the heart is number one.

To you, who will love me someday, my loneliness is still here for you. Remain faithful, waiting for the time when we meet. If only you knew, until now my heart is still kept in longing. I hope you are too, until the time comes when you are with me.

© Akura Popo