I didn't deserve you, and you didn't deserve this.
I'm sorry from the deepest parts of my vacant soul.
I allowed my surrounding chaos to influence my actions.
I've learned to portray a deceptive calm so not to draw attention.
Unfortunately, this left you feeling abandoned during your storms.
This mirage of calm is something I too have come to believe as real.
I find myself seeking it in the darkness desperate for balance & stability.
But no worries my luv.
This illusion shall soon fade and it is I who will fall for all eternity.
This is my true fate after all, as every real thing I've ever had was taken long ago.
I was selfish to hold on for as long as I have.
As I only brought you and my other rays if light down with me.
It's in my absence I endure true sorrow and unrelenting agony.
Hoping I'll do right by you & protect you from a similar fate.
You've always been my sunshine.
The only sunshine I've ever known.
I know I broke your heart & this is why I've not returned.
So not in vain, know my absence is in love.
I dream of you every night.
It's your voice calling out to me that wakes me every morning.
I love you.
And I'm sorry from the deepest parts of my vacant soul.
© Lucid Sin~Sation
I allowed my surrounding chaos to influence my actions.
I've learned to portray a deceptive calm so not to draw attention.
Unfortunately, this left you feeling abandoned during your storms.
This mirage of calm is something I too have come to believe as real.
I find myself seeking it in the darkness desperate for balance & stability.
But no worries my luv.
This illusion shall soon fade and it is I who will fall for all eternity.
This is my true fate after all, as every real thing I've ever had was taken long ago.
I was selfish to hold on for as long as I have.
As I only brought you and my other rays if light down with me.
It's in my absence I endure true sorrow and unrelenting agony.
Hoping I'll do right by you & protect you from a similar fate.
You've always been my sunshine.
The only sunshine I've ever known.
I know I broke your heart & this is why I've not returned.
So not in vain, know my absence is in love.
I dream of you every night.
It's your voice calling out to me that wakes me every morning.
I love you.
And I'm sorry from the deepest parts of my vacant soul.
© Lucid Sin~Sation