There was once a time ,that every single day , the love of my life, would call me the most beautiful, kind, generous,and thoughtful person . Now i am even lucky if i get to hear his voice Now i'm even lucky if he doesn't slam my head into the wall.

I just wanted to be loved even if it wasn't by him, i needed somebody who would tell me"your going to be fine","you will succeed at fighting the cancer","YOU WILL LIVE". But i guess that was too much to ask for . I may leave this world tomorrow and you will never know the reason, we've been together for 15 years and always shared everything from what we ate yesterday to what we were going to eat today. 15 YEARS of the trust went outside the window when i found you cheating on our 12 year anniversary, and still cheating today. YOU lie that your going on business trips, YOU lie saying your at the office , YOU LIE SAYING YOUR AT HOME . I believed you until i saw you outside .Even though i saw you ,you played it off like it wasn't you, even though i'm the one who payed for that tattoo.


You continue to break me by cheating, abuse, and even the way you look at me.

I'm writing this on my deathbed , by the time you come back from your "BUSINESS TRIP" i will most likely be gone ,it was stage 4 anyway, but i have made peace with it because you broke me PIECE BY PIECE .

And hopefully now i can find my PEACE .




© Kara igbinoba