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I Hate The Letter '๐'.(updated!!)
I hate the letter '๐'.
Of the 164,777 words with the letter '๐' in them,I only grapple with one. To condemn an entire letter because of its use 0.0006%
of the time sounds statistically absurd, but that one case changed 100% of my life.
I used to have two parents, but now I have one, and the '๐' in the word 'parents' is not going anywhere.
The letter '๐' follows me.
I cannot get through a day without being reminded that while my friends went out to dinner with their ๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐ , I ate with my ๐๐๐๐๐๐.
As I write this essay, there is a blue line under the word '๐๐๐๐๐๐' telling me to check my grammar; even Grammarly assumes that I should have parents, but unfortunately, cheating does not listen to edit suggestions.
I will not claim that my situation is as unique as 1 in 18,300,000 or 0.00001 in 26.2%, but it is still an exception to the rule - the world isnt meant for this special case.
The world would not abandon the letter ''๐' because of me, so I tried to abandon '๐'.I could get away from '๐' if I stayed busy; you cannot have dinner with your ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ( Thanks again Grammarly!) if you are too busy to have family dinner.
Any soare time that I had, I filled.I bacame known as the "busy kid" or someone who is always overlooked or forgotten or "๐๐ท๐ด๐๐๐๐ต๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐" โ
the one that everyone always thought that is a new face or IF they remembered you, they would ask
"How do you have time?"
Morning meetings, classes, afterschool meetings, homeworks, projects, book clubs, swimming classes, sleep, repeat.
Though my specific schedule has changed over time, the busyness has not. Whatever I did, I could not manage to fill in the loss that ' ๐' left in my life, but I could at least try to make sure I did not have to think about it.
There were so many things in my life that I could not control, so I control what I could โ my schedule. I never succumbed to the stress of overcommitting. I thrived.
It became a challenge to juggle it all, but I would soon find a rhythm.But a rhythm wasn't what I wanted. Rhythm may not have an ' ๐',but ' ๐' sure liked to come by whenever I was idle. So, I added another ball,and another,and another. Soon I noticed the same "color" balls kept falling into my hands โ theatre,academics,economics.
I wanted to come into contacts with these more and more, so I further narrowed the scope of my color wheel and increased gbe range of my primary colors.
Life became easier to juggle, but for the first time, I didn't add another ball. I found my rhythm and I embraced it. I stopped runnjng away from a single '๐ ' and began chasing a double '๐ ' paSSion.
Passion has given me a purpose. I was shackled to ' ๐' as I tried to escape the confiness of the traditional familial structure.
No matter how far I ran, ' ๐ ' stayed right behind me because I kept looking back. I have finally learned to move forward instead of away, and it is liberating.
' ๐' has got me moving, but it has not kept me going. I wish I could end here, triumphant and basking in my new inspiration, but life is more convuluted.
Motivation is a double edged sword; it keeps me moving forward, but it also keeps me from having to look back.
I want to claim tbat I showed courage from being able to turn from ' S' but I, unfortunately, cannot.
๐ธ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ข.
ยฉ SadVerity
Of the 164,777 words with the letter '๐' in them,I only grapple with one. To condemn an entire letter because of its use 0.0006%
of the time sounds statistically absurd, but that one case changed 100% of my life.
I used to have two parents, but now I have one, and the '๐' in the word 'parents' is not going anywhere.
The letter '๐' follows me.
I cannot get through a day without being reminded that while my friends went out to dinner with their ๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐ , I ate with my ๐๐๐๐๐๐.
As I write this essay, there is a blue line under the word '๐๐๐๐๐๐' telling me to check my grammar; even Grammarly assumes that I should have parents, but unfortunately, cheating does not listen to edit suggestions.
I will not claim that my situation is as unique as 1 in 18,300,000 or 0.00001 in 26.2%, but it is still an exception to the rule - the world isnt meant for this special case.
The world would not abandon the letter ''๐' because of me, so I tried to abandon '๐'.I could get away from '๐' if I stayed busy; you cannot have dinner with your ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ( Thanks again Grammarly!) if you are too busy to have family dinner.
Any soare time that I had, I filled.I bacame known as the "busy kid" or someone who is always overlooked or forgotten or "๐๐ท๐ด๐๐๐๐ต๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐" โ
the one that everyone always thought that is a new face or IF they remembered you, they would ask
"How do you have time?"
Morning meetings, classes, afterschool meetings, homeworks, projects, book clubs, swimming classes, sleep, repeat.
Though my specific schedule has changed over time, the busyness has not. Whatever I did, I could not manage to fill in the loss that ' ๐' left in my life, but I could at least try to make sure I did not have to think about it.
There were so many things in my life that I could not control, so I control what I could โ my schedule. I never succumbed to the stress of overcommitting. I thrived.
It became a challenge to juggle it all, but I would soon find a rhythm.But a rhythm wasn't what I wanted. Rhythm may not have an ' ๐',but ' ๐' sure liked to come by whenever I was idle. So, I added another ball,and another,and another. Soon I noticed the same "color" balls kept falling into my hands โ theatre,academics,economics.
I wanted to come into contacts with these more and more, so I further narrowed the scope of my color wheel and increased gbe range of my primary colors.
Life became easier to juggle, but for the first time, I didn't add another ball. I found my rhythm and I embraced it. I stopped runnjng away from a single '๐ ' and began chasing a double '๐ ' paSSion.
Passion has given me a purpose. I was shackled to ' ๐' as I tried to escape the confiness of the traditional familial structure.
No matter how far I ran, ' ๐ ' stayed right behind me because I kept looking back. I have finally learned to move forward instead of away, and it is liberating.
' ๐' has got me moving, but it has not kept me going. I wish I could end here, triumphant and basking in my new inspiration, but life is more convuluted.
Motivation is a double edged sword; it keeps me moving forward, but it also keeps me from having to look back.
I want to claim tbat I showed courage from being able to turn from ' S' but I, unfortunately, cannot.
๐ธ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ข.
ยฉ SadVerity
