He smiled coyly at me from across the bridge
The multitude of strange eyes had me on the edge

He motioned me to come on over to him
I breathed heavily my anxiety filling the brim

He was perfect, all that I wanted in my lover
My dreams came true soon, I thought they'd Never

At that lightning of moment I saw how we met
It was by accident but, we beautifully set

As days passed to weeks and months of togetherness
I knew nothing of my dark world as he lighted it with happiness

I Never thought of the future, only the here and now
Nothing mattered to me, a frown I didn't allow

The persistent honking of the car brought me to the present
Him still tirelessly waving to me who was hesitant

Finally, found the strength to lift my feet to walk
It Must be done, no choice, had to have the talk

I semi hugged him as we were close
He backed in awkwardness, at my greeting, he froze

We sat for coffee and each expected to start
In months of intimacy now, felt guiltily apart

"So here we are then", I whispered to the air
Breaking the ice and displayed my move of care

He smiled again, running his finger on the rim of the coffee cup
My eyes studying the circular motion, awaiting his answer in this holdup

He finally, met my gaze and held it on my lips
I immediately got nervous and took hot sips

It was obvious I had to tell him sooner or later
I had mustered all the strength and had come this far braver

Whatever the outcome, I prayed we both would be good
Though, what happened in the next minutes, left me miserably misunderstood

"I'm sorry Matt, it all had to come to this"
"You know, it doesn't have to end where we each other should miss"

He paused. With his sun kissed blonde hair a beautiful mess, raising his eyebrows and his blue eyes surveying me whole
I did not look up as, shock gripped tight, my quivering soul

"It was a phase, I'm sure You wanted to try too"
"Everything happened so fast, there was nothing we both could do"

I didn't reciprocate in agreement of this unexpected news
My feelings, senses and mind in unison short circuited a fuse

All this time, I had been worried about letting him go
Because of my fear, unacceptance, shame and my parents discovery to know

He carried on about how we should go our separate ways
I was still numb and couldn't come out of my shocked daze

He unapologetically left, his empty promises and love a show, on the surface
I genuinely gave my all but, in cowardness to just Not the two of us

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