I met My lover when pain was my triumph..after 3years of staying single with no commitments.I found love in my best friend.

I keep on asking my doubtful self,how long will it last?because every bond I created sure had a duration..as much as I had my own dreams of taming a good life for years with one person..Love just proved me wrong..

I pray everyday,that my love is based in being true..And my past wont come back haunting my thoughts,for me to doubt my partner,because I want a life not a short term contract.

Today I was peaceful,and in my thoughts of peace I found my worries.

Love found me,I just cant tell if I really found myself yet....Deep down,I wanted to speak it out,but I felt like I would hurt his feelings..As Etana always says,The weakness in me..."if I had a lover who loves me,how can I break such a heart"...these words take me home every time..

My heart is at peace,but then my mind is not..I need a balance..I swear to the heavens...I want to feel this so deep without being blind❤.So God help me.