“But why? Why do you want to do this now? Everything was going well right” I knew she was not going to change her decision. But I was trying to find an escape from reality.
“This won’t work out. My family won’t agree to this marriage. You don’t have the characteristics that my dad looks in a person”
“But we have talked about this, right? Then why did you agree to a relationship in the first place? Do I look like a fool to you?” I was trying to control my nerves, But somewhere it was breaking the chains.
Her eyes were full, Face started looking like a withered flower.
“But now… I can’t take this anymore!” For a moment, I felt like someone kept a stone over my heart.
Tears were flowing out of her eyes. My eyes always had something to do with her eyes.It started keeping drops of tears like there’s some connection between our eyes.
“Ok… If that’s what you want, We’ll end this.” I couldn't see her like that. Heart was draining in pain.

“We’ll be friends forever, don’t ignore me please!”

I just looked at her face, and walked away. She was not my first love. But we were best friends before we fell in love. I thought everything will be different now. I never wanted a relationship after my first love. It’s true…losing your first love hurts a lot. But I had some faith left in love after the first breakup. That’s the reason I fell in love with Rupa. She…,is such an artwork of emotions. She was my best friend.and someone who was beside me for a long time. Our friendship turned into love one day suddenly, from nowhere. Within a few days, we were mad in love. All the attachment I had towards her when she was my friend, turned into love maybe. But I guess I lost her when I went to study somewhere far away from our hometown.She was too afraid of losing me. Sometimes I felt sad about it. Many days I saw her struggling with the long distance.

I felt something was wrong when she said she’s coming to meet me. I found some cracks in that conversation. We were not spending a lot of time together even online in the last few weeks.But I didn’t expect that this was going to be the climax of our love story.

When I came out of the cafe and started walking through the streets, I felt so weak. Even the sound of the wind felt like a somber song. All those memories with her were running inside my head like a slideshow. The more I thought about her, I felt like someone is knitting on my heart.I sat on a bench in the road. It was hard to breathe. I started trying to figure out some reasons to make sense of it.
Maybe she’s right! What will happen to both of us, if we can't get married in future. She already used to say that she can’t marry me if her parents didn’t allow it. I was facing a lot of tension seeing her being like that. Rather than living in fear everyday, it’s better to let her live. If I love her so much, leaving her may be the best thing I can do for her.
Thoughts were raining in my head. But all of them just made it more heavy. That evening, I just wanted to disappear…
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Days passed… I slowly tried to move on from her. But she wanted a friend. I tried ignoring, acting differently. But whenever she became sad. It was like I'm losing the ability to ignore her.
Even though we were in different places, I felt her presence everyday. Maybe I had hope that she would come back one day. I didn’t think of another relationship.I found out that she was focusing a lot in career. Maybe to forget the past. But it made me stay at a distance from her.

A year passed. I completed my studies and came home. I had secured a job and I got information that I should join the company next month. I wanted to speak with her this time. We never met after the breakup even though I came to my hometown a few times.
I called her and asked to meet that evening. I didn’t expect she’ll agree. But she agreed to that.

I waited at the same cafe where we used to meet. As usual she came late. Her face brought a frozen spell to my heart. She came and sat at the table. She looked so adorable. The atmosphere was different. It was not the whatsapp where i used to pretend I don’t care about her.
“Can I get another chance?” I didn’t know where it came from. But those words stayed inside for a long time.
“What are you talking about? You’re joking right”. She was smiling
“No… I got a somewhat good job. Not upto your dad’s standards. But still…I just wanted to ask. Anyhow…Don’t worry…I’m not going to compel you”
“We have gone through a lot. This is for the good. I’m not ready to suffer again”
She said that she was the only one who suffered. Maybe I hid my emotions from her. But I felt she had changed.
“Ok Ok…I don’t have any issues. I’ll get a lot of girlfriends”
“You said you were dating girls in college right. I know how many girls revolve around you”
Actually I told her that I was dating girls to make her believe that I moved on. But I was ignoring everyone till then. I remembered why I did that. I remembered that evening, the bench and that somber song.
“Yeh…I need to...