Everything that happened just complicated things more. I don't know if i should be happy or sad. We no longer talk the way we used to. Maybe it's just on my head, that's what I'm praying for. I mean i love her with all in me. I've been hurt a lot but this will hurt differently, why because she's the only person I've ever fell in love with. Maybe she knows that ,maybe she don't, if she does that's actually why she's treating me like this. I used to fake my tears in front of people who think they've got me. This time i won't fake them, she just won't ever see a drop of them. I hate the fact that I've started to love her more than i love myself. But then i need to get my shit together. Make a room for disappointments. And let love together with life do it's course. I can't say i don't deserve any of this well because maybe i do