Ever,

If I could say all the unfiltered shit…

If I could write a letter and say everything I really wish I could say I would prolly feel like a terrible human being but as of your recent text and voice messages to me today while I was on my way to work. I have decided that I will say everything I’ve wanted to say right here.
I wasn’t even supposed to work today, I picked up the shift bc I have bills and things I need to take care of and I am gettin tired of being at the house having to cater to you. You bought ur 6yr old child back and I can barely take care of her bc u demand so much. I really thought just a week ago that I was actually finally able to accept you and “fall in love” bc things were going kind of smoothly but when I really look at the big picture you have been here since March…in MY HOME that u refuse to leave and I am to terrified of what fuckery you may cause to get anyone involved to force you to leave. See I fucked up with you in so many ways…when you first begin hitting me up I made excuses and kept blowing you off but I caved in and allowed u to come over one time and it’s been Hell ever since. Then I fucked up again and got high with you thinking I can trust you and you throw that in my face and try to use it against me to discredit my character or make me look bad. 
You embarrass me. The loud ignorant way you speak in public the attention you’ve brought on me and my place that I’ve lived comfortably for 6 years now… I can’t even look my neighbors in the eyes bc I stress about what they must...