Dear, S

I wanted to explain actually what happened.

as Always life put me in a hard situation and me being "Me", I didn't know the way out. OR I  knew but it was not simple or I was not ready to go through the emotional storm so as a normal person would do, I took the easy way out by not facing the real problem and ignoring the person related.
Because of that, we become distant and small communication ignorance caused something big. Something I never wanted to happen. "Us falling apart" 

And now after 2 months of long uncomfortable silence. I know I made the wrong choice. I should have talked, because I know no matter what, you are the only one who knows exactly how to calm me down. You may not know how to help me out but you being with me holding my hand letting me know that I can always count on you makes every pain bearable.   

Yes, I have friends to share my problems and I love them a lot but no one is you and no one can ever be.

So here I Am accepting my mistake writing this in my diary yeah in my diary a "letter to you" and wishing I could say all this to you. to let you know how sorry I am and how much I need you in my life. I know you will forgive me you always do but this time I want to feel this emptiness so I can learn my lesson for the next time and be sure I will do what's right or even wrong but I will never allow anything to come between Us. I hope someday.

till then take care

loveyou
yours Hadiya... 

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