Dear Diary
yes I do miss him, yes the guy about whom I told you that he is different , he won't break my heart but no he just crushed my feelings and left not a single piece to revive.. thus I killed the person in me who loved him. still I love him so much. yes I'm getting flashbacks of the moments we shared... my mind still feels they are good memories... how happy we were .... etc. I don't want to consider them as happy memories.. cuz by cheating on me you made question all these moments that whether you were acting to love me or you really loved me... amm leave it... I'm hurt really really feeling hurted.. broken and what not... still my showed positive impacts after leaving you... maybe my body knew true you before I knew what you are... yes you're manipulative ... you admitted this still I stayed. yes you told me you've chances of cheating on me still I trusted you and stayed. yes you told me you're not a good guy for still I trusted you and stayed... but yes this doesn't define your actions.. you can't say that you were honest so it can't be your fault yes YOU CAN'T! this just can't justify your actions. you don't have any right to punish someone only because he or she trusted you. I was the only person on your side and look you've hurted me too.. broke me too... see what you've done... I was ready to fight to everything everyone for you... but you couldn't fight with your ownself for me.. what do you think I never got chance or choices to cheat on you?? I had... but I chose you... yes I love you.. but I don't want you.. I don't want to see you, listen your voice, smell you etc. yes maybe if you would die I would cry but yes I will cry for the person I loved not for the person who betrayed me ...
© @Aayushi_Yadav

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