, i still remember everything from the first time we met, from the voice recordings to the text messages. i don't regret meeting you but i regretted the way we always ended things. it pains me to see you leave because deep down i know i still love you, hoping that you'll be the one for me. i'm sorry i can't be the one you wanted and never will, i'm sorry for all the inconvenience i brought upon you. i find myself looking for you in someone else but non of them is just like you and honestly i'll wait but for how long more, i have no idea. i miss the way you made me smile, the way you made me feel so special and your assurance that you're always here for me, you made me the happiest i can be and i'll never forget you.i hope you're doing fine and like i promised, i'm always here if you ever need me....I guess because i miss you. but i just want you to know you mean so much to me. i look at you like you put the stars in the sky. well you are my stars. looking at you gives me butterflies, hearing your voice gives me butterflies, locking eyes with you gives me butterflies i am so in love with you its crazy. ive never felt this much love for anyone. and we are literally in high school. i would do anything for you. i want to last forever. i want to roll over in the morning and see you. i want to fall asleep with your arms around me, i want to be able to stay up and watch movies and cuddle. i want you to be playing video games and me just come sit in your lap while your playing them.

when i look at you feel sparks. i love you more than anything. you are constantly on my mind. all these other guys that are giving me attention dont matter to me, i want your attention and your attention only. no one else matters to me. you are all i need. i know im in Ive with you beacause when we arent talking im lost and all i want to do is sleep. when we are texting im constantly smiling. you are perfect to me. i miss you. i miss the feeling of your lips on mine. i miss your hands being around my waist when we kiss. i miss holding your hand. i miss hearing your voice.
© vinod sam