Lately, I’ve been feeling a sense of emotional imbalance that I can't fully understand. Sometimes, out of nowhere, I feel the need to stay silent, retreating into a corner, avoiding people. It’s like a sudden shift in my mood where I don’t want to engage with anyone, and I just want to be by myself. I can’t explain why this happens, but it feels overwhelming, like the weight of everything is too much for me to carry.

But then, there are moments when I crave being around others, talking, and sharing my thoughts. It’s a confusing feeling because it’s like I’m stuck in between two extremes—one moment, I want to isolate myself, and the next, I long for connection. I can’t seem to make sense of it. The back-and-forth is draining, and I often feel lost in my own emotions, unsure of what I really want or need.

However, when I don’t speak, when the words just don’t come out of my mouth, it feels awful. It’s like something inside of me is holding me back, and I can't explain it to anyone. I start thinking that others might see me...