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Crush
Hum as individual kaafi logo se milte hai for many reasons like aas pados ke log, parents ke dost and relatives...school and colleges ke classmates and other junior seniors, work place pe colleagues.
Itne logo me 1/3rd logo se hum generic dosti kar lete hai, aur unme se aadhe se hum ache friends bante hai, aur unke bhi aadhe logo se hum best ya close friend ban jaate hai.
But inme se kuch log aise hote hai jinke liye hum thodi alag feeling develop kar lete hai. We want to talk to them but we kinda feel nervous and shy... We do silly things infront of them that time accidentally and after some year wo kahi alag goals ko achieve karne nikal jaate hai and we kinda hide that feelings for eternity. We label them as our Crush.
We have a special connection with them, we know all about them even though they don't remember us very clearly. But we don't talk about them, just our friends tease us by talking about them. But we can't do much about it so we just shelf that feels as book in our heart.
Time goes on we make some gf/bf , take some ridiculously silly decisions, regret about it and move on. But in our thoughts we vaguely but always imagine our crush as our partner and yes we accepts the reality that "crush apne aukaad se baahar hai" so we smiles while thinking about them.
But ek time ata hai, ek aisa circumstance ban jata hai jaha hum apne crush se dubara milte hai and somehow that old feeling is still there but we feel confident, shock bhi hote hai. they try to remember where they have seen us, try recall our name but we reintroduce ourselves. We catch up with them, talk to them and all. Excited feel karte hai and ye bhi realise karte hai ki humne unhe jitna badhaa-chadhaakar imagine kiya tha ye usse jyada simple aur easy to talk hai. Maybe tab hum kuch jyada hi chomu lagte the(self realisation to tha)...
Baate karne ko to bahut kuch thi but we end our talk show by saying "kaafi time baad mil kar acha laga, phir milenge kabhi, bye". Wo din hi ek bookmark ban jaati hai humaari life me, din bhar sochte hai ki "how we got that much courage", but again hume ye bhi yaad hai ki they said they are with someone else now, so accepting that we again shelf that feeling in our heart and walk with it.
But now its happening again and again. Hum baar baar unse kahi na kahi se mil rahe hai. Ab itni baar hone laga hai ki we exchanged our number with them aur ye humaare crush khud se karte hai by saying "yaar tumse baat karke maza hi aa jata hai ,we should be friends".
Ye friendship gahri hone lagti hai,itni gahri ki we don't realise ki we and they're now not just talking but sharing the deepest memories our life. Phir ek time aisa bhi ata hi jab hum confess kar dete hai ki they were our crush ("are" nhi "were" kyuki dar to abhi bhi rahe hai bataane se ki "tumhaare kiye meri feeling kabhi nhi badli") and they were now in shock. Kuch ke crush takes it as a compliment, but kuch ke crush start to avoid them because they don't want any trouble in their life.
But i am talking about those crushes who take it as a compliment and say "why you never told me about it" and we gave our reasons like you were very popular that time, you were with someone else that time, or worse you don't know me that time and blah blah blah radhe krishna...
But now they appreciate our confession and i don't know what feeling is this but its a state where we find peace on a seashore in heavy rain....( I dont know if anybody ever felt this feel but i do).
Something is changed now, Yes we are still talking with them but a different behaviour occurs, softness in voice, a cute kick in words. Somehow our crush and us start to feel the slight hint of affection and we realise it but not expressing it. It comes to a point where flirting is common, talking about the whole day is necessary and solving each others problems is unsaid rule. Yes our crush is still with someone else that time and yes they are Posting it in their socials about it, yaha tak ki humaare crush apne partner ke saath aage ke plans bhi bataate hai. We feel jealousy but again we know we cant do much about it .But now we dont shelf it, not this time. Because somehow both of us know what's our heart wants and now our crush also developed some feels for ours and we know that too.
Ab ye kahani kisi doobti kashti jaisi ho jaati hai.
Hum dono hi jaante hai ki iss rishte ka aage koi future nhi hai. Aage shaayad hum kabhi mile bhi na ek dusre se aur na baate hongi. Na kisi pe koi haqk jata paayega na parwaah karne ki jagah bachegi.
Jaise hum ye accept kar lete hai, hum dono dheere dheere baat karna kam karne lagte hai. Haa haal chaal ab bhi puch lete hai, din kaisa gaya ye bhi jaan lete hai, par wo excitement, wo caring wala ahsaas kho sa jata hai. Aur wo pal bhi eventually aa jata hai jab baate bilkul hi khatam ho jaati. Bas stories aur posts me unhe dekh lete hai aur is baar hamesha ke liye unki yaado aur recently mile pyaar se bhari kitaab ko hum apne dil ke shelf se nikaal kar apne se alag kar dete hai taaki aur koi false hope na jaag sake ...
Kaafi silent dard hota hai iss process me.
Par kahne hai na..
Pyaar ka dusra naam compromise and sacrifice hai...🥲
© Sudeb
Itne logo me 1/3rd logo se hum generic dosti kar lete hai, aur unme se aadhe se hum ache friends bante hai, aur unke bhi aadhe logo se hum best ya close friend ban jaate hai.
But inme se kuch log aise hote hai jinke liye hum thodi alag feeling develop kar lete hai. We want to talk to them but we kinda feel nervous and shy... We do silly things infront of them that time accidentally and after some year wo kahi alag goals ko achieve karne nikal jaate hai and we kinda hide that feelings for eternity. We label them as our Crush.
We have a special connection with them, we know all about them even though they don't remember us very clearly. But we don't talk about them, just our friends tease us by talking about them. But we can't do much about it so we just shelf that feels as book in our heart.
Time goes on we make some gf/bf , take some ridiculously silly decisions, regret about it and move on. But in our thoughts we vaguely but always imagine our crush as our partner and yes we accepts the reality that "crush apne aukaad se baahar hai" so we smiles while thinking about them.
But ek time ata hai, ek aisa circumstance ban jata hai jaha hum apne crush se dubara milte hai and somehow that old feeling is still there but we feel confident, shock bhi hote hai. they try to remember where they have seen us, try recall our name but we reintroduce ourselves. We catch up with them, talk to them and all. Excited feel karte hai and ye bhi realise karte hai ki humne unhe jitna badhaa-chadhaakar imagine kiya tha ye usse jyada simple aur easy to talk hai. Maybe tab hum kuch jyada hi chomu lagte the(self realisation to tha)...
Baate karne ko to bahut kuch thi but we end our talk show by saying "kaafi time baad mil kar acha laga, phir milenge kabhi, bye". Wo din hi ek bookmark ban jaati hai humaari life me, din bhar sochte hai ki "how we got that much courage", but again hume ye bhi yaad hai ki they said they are with someone else now, so accepting that we again shelf that feeling in our heart and walk with it.
But now its happening again and again. Hum baar baar unse kahi na kahi se mil rahe hai. Ab itni baar hone laga hai ki we exchanged our number with them aur ye humaare crush khud se karte hai by saying "yaar tumse baat karke maza hi aa jata hai ,we should be friends".
Ye friendship gahri hone lagti hai,itni gahri ki we don't realise ki we and they're now not just talking but sharing the deepest memories our life. Phir ek time aisa bhi ata hi jab hum confess kar dete hai ki they were our crush ("are" nhi "were" kyuki dar to abhi bhi rahe hai bataane se ki "tumhaare kiye meri feeling kabhi nhi badli") and they were now in shock. Kuch ke crush takes it as a compliment, but kuch ke crush start to avoid them because they don't want any trouble in their life.
But i am talking about those crushes who take it as a compliment and say "why you never told me about it" and we gave our reasons like you were very popular that time, you were with someone else that time, or worse you don't know me that time and blah blah blah radhe krishna...
But now they appreciate our confession and i don't know what feeling is this but its a state where we find peace on a seashore in heavy rain....( I dont know if anybody ever felt this feel but i do).
Something is changed now, Yes we are still talking with them but a different behaviour occurs, softness in voice, a cute kick in words. Somehow our crush and us start to feel the slight hint of affection and we realise it but not expressing it. It comes to a point where flirting is common, talking about the whole day is necessary and solving each others problems is unsaid rule. Yes our crush is still with someone else that time and yes they are Posting it in their socials about it, yaha tak ki humaare crush apne partner ke saath aage ke plans bhi bataate hai. We feel jealousy but again we know we cant do much about it .But now we dont shelf it, not this time. Because somehow both of us know what's our heart wants and now our crush also developed some feels for ours and we know that too.
Ab ye kahani kisi doobti kashti jaisi ho jaati hai.
Hum dono hi jaante hai ki iss rishte ka aage koi future nhi hai. Aage shaayad hum kabhi mile bhi na ek dusre se aur na baate hongi. Na kisi pe koi haqk jata paayega na parwaah karne ki jagah bachegi.
Jaise hum ye accept kar lete hai, hum dono dheere dheere baat karna kam karne lagte hai. Haa haal chaal ab bhi puch lete hai, din kaisa gaya ye bhi jaan lete hai, par wo excitement, wo caring wala ahsaas kho sa jata hai. Aur wo pal bhi eventually aa jata hai jab baate bilkul hi khatam ho jaati. Bas stories aur posts me unhe dekh lete hai aur is baar hamesha ke liye unki yaado aur recently mile pyaar se bhari kitaab ko hum apne dil ke shelf se nikaal kar apne se alag kar dete hai taaki aur koi false hope na jaag sake ...
Kaafi silent dard hota hai iss process me.
Par kahne hai na..
Pyaar ka dusra naam compromise and sacrifice hai...🥲
© Sudeb
