"Are u alright ?"
The air blew her hair as she mumbled these words to u , as you two stood in the park

" Aren't you afraid of me ? " u whispered , hoping she'll say something
Anything
People would be afraid of you , you were strong , you had power , your family owns one of the biggest companies

" No I'm not " she replayed
" Are u okay ?" Again she asked

No.
I'm not ......
That's what u wanted to say .
That was the truth ......

A hot tear made it way your cheek .

"why are u crying ?" She said with worry in her voice

You didn't notice that tear until she told u, u didn't brother to wipe it off , you were sure enough that it'll be replaced with many others ...

U wanted to shout and tell the people how heavy it feels on your chest
How cruel is it to your heart
How it passionly broke u
How painful it became to breathe

But u didn't .....

It was more then enough , to keep your mouth shut .
You hated breaking down
But the way you felt your heart tearing apart
Has reached your limits

" I don't feel alright "

" It'll be alright , don't let it get to u okay ? " she said softly ,like she's afraid to hurt u more

"What if it did ?"
You voice cracked , more tears falling down . You tried to hold them , but it made your vision blurry , as you wish you can't see anymore ...
You can't talk anymore ....
You can't move anymore .....
You're not existing anymore .....

" then I know u'll find a way to not stay hurt "
She smiled gently at you , trying to comfort u . And maybe cheer u up .

But it didn't

U stayed silent for a moment , before u broke it

" What if I can't find a way to ?"
U asked as your voice cracked
She lifted her head up quickly looking at u slittly shoocked

" What if I don't find a way ? "
She looked u in the eyes , seeing all the pain you're hiding

The silent pain that kills your heart ...

" What if I don't want to find a way anymore , what would u do ?"

" You will , you have a strong brave heart that will manage to get through the darkest of days "
She added :
" Even if it feels heavy ...
Even if it feels too harsh ....
You will eventually find a way to stop all the pain here " she said pointing at your heart
You opened your mouth trying to speak, as more tears rolled down your cheeks
Those cheeks that were always smelling widely
Now warm and wet from the tears your eyes escaped

" No one knows how it makes me feel "
You said , with the weakest eyes , as you felt the pain growing in your heart again...
Breathing is hard now ,
Your chest feels heavy now

Again , she opened her mouth to speak , but eventually closed it .
She didn't know what to say .

" My life is meaningless "
You said in the lowest , yet the most broken tone

She looked at you with wide eyes

" No it's no- "

" Yes it is " you said now crying harder
" Just open your eyes
People won't believe I'm not making this up until I put them in my shoes ..
They leave me simply and go
Because they don't wanna help me anymore .... "
You posed for a minute
" Little do you know everyone left me ? "
You said with a smirk on your Buffy face

But why were u smirking ?

Cause u though that smilling will make u feel better
, No it didn't.

" There's still someone who cares about you "

U looked at her , waiting for a respond with pleading eyes .
U needed to feel loved at that moment
You needed that the most

"I care about you because I like u , people can't see the real u .
That's why they dumped you "

She took a deep breathe before carrying on

"The real u is kind , smart , loving and caring "
" They don't see what I see "

Surprised , those words made u feel better

" If u like me this much , would u help me ?" You asked her , this time looking down
" Anything " she said smilling to u

You pulled her hand to placed it on your chest , right above your aching heart
The heart that needed love , nothing but love

" Then make the pain ho away , I beg "
You looked at her , now sobbing .

" I didn't have a mother to do this to me , nor a friend that cares about me , so please "
" I don't know what I'm doing , I'm destroying myself and I can't stop it "
U looked at her
Dameged
Hurt
Sad
Pained
Basically you were broken ....

She looked at u unsure of what to do , before she pulled you into a hug .

Now rubbing your hair , u tightened the grip around her .
Not wanting to let her go
You can't lose her this time
Because you'll stay alone and that's what you hated
Being alone
You used to annoy her just so you'll stay with her
Cause you didn't want to feel left out again
Of course , everyone wanted being around u
The girls were on their knees for u
But did it make u happy ?

" No one will take me away from you " she said slipping a tear from her eyes , pulling closer you to her chest , hugging tighter , like a mother who found her lost son

" Promise me ? Promise you won't leave "
You said with fear in your tone

" I promise "