I'm supposed to talk to someone about this and I've tried, God knows I've tried, but something about hearing it spoken out loud freezes everything in me and I can't breath.

Three people that I love more then my own life told me good bye in a very similar way.
The first was my Mom, on November 7th 2000, I had gone to visit her and she was laying in bed watching TV.
I asked if she was okay and she said "well the doctor says I'm dieing, but don't you worry about me, I know where I'm going."
She asked me if I would sing a song with her from the church song book called Father Alone and if I could help her pick out a dress to be buried in.
My heart was breaking, but what could I do but say yes. That was the last time I saw my Mom, she passed away that night while on her knees praying.
The second person was my oldest sister.
She died on March 15th 2012 from cancer.
I took care of her day and night for to months, the day before she passed I could tell she was scared. I could see it in her...