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Last letter of Autumn
#Hey,
I don't know what to address you at this moment but I have something to confess and I hope at the end I might know the right word for you, specifically for "us."
I still remember the day we first talked, every single word of it and at that very second it seemed something was connected.For a stranger ,you were much more compatible or as you say we had the perfect frequency synchronisation,well atleast for me it was.The way you spoke,you cared, it was really precious for me to know that I can be cared in a right way,at least you made me feel that I really deserve some true affection.There was no obsession or attachment between us but there was surely an attraction.
I made myself believe that because we are somehow somuch compatible,that's why there's this attachment and this is nothing else.
Things were going fun with you ,till I got to know the tragedy of your brokenself.
Honestly,it broke me for a while to know that you didn't want to give a chance to love,ever again. I was confused for whether I was being overly empathic or was it something more than mere attraction. But I didn't say anything further, rather I choosed to bury those conflicts in my heart.Not to mention, because of what I had suffered in my past,I never wanted to go through that phase again in my life.I was not ready to ask for anyone's attention or time or care or anything.
I surely wouldn't be writing this to you but for the sake of all those tiny moments of happiness,care and joy,I owe you a lot .As a matter of fact,you have unknowingly mended my wounds when I was alone struggling to know my worth .No words would be sufficient to describe how grateful I am.May be that's why i need you to know that everyone deserves to be loved.Out of anybody you surely does.And maybe I won't ask you for your opinion towards me as clearly you have already given me so much.Thus my attraction,these feelings ,these just came natural,and I can't be selfish to demand anymore from you .
For the sake of those moments when you made me feel so special,If in any way, I have ever mattered to you , please try and give life another chance.Trust me, you're ready to do better,you can make someone the luckiest person in this world and in return you too deserve your share to be loved.I will be happy to see you like that way,with me or without me , doesn't matter.Just promise that you will choose your someone special and live your life happily.Do this for yourself,Raj ,do this for me ,do this for us .
"After all the things we lose, have a way of coming back to us in the end".
The way I found my faith,my love in you,I'm sure you will find yours too.If there's a tiniest chance of that person could be me,then please let me know,and if not ,that will also be okay ,I don't mind,but you need to keep looking.And this time, promise me that, you will open your heart to it , promise me that you will keep the lights on.
With love,
Shanaya.
I don't know what to address you at this moment but I have something to confess and I hope at the end I might know the right word for you, specifically for "us."
I still remember the day we first talked, every single word of it and at that very second it seemed something was connected.For a stranger ,you were much more compatible or as you say we had the perfect frequency synchronisation,well atleast for me it was.The way you spoke,you cared, it was really precious for me to know that I can be cared in a right way,at least you made me feel that I really deserve some true affection.There was no obsession or attachment between us but there was surely an attraction.
I made myself believe that because we are somehow somuch compatible,that's why there's this attachment and this is nothing else.
Things were going fun with you ,till I got to know the tragedy of your brokenself.
Honestly,it broke me for a while to know that you didn't want to give a chance to love,ever again. I was confused for whether I was being overly empathic or was it something more than mere attraction. But I didn't say anything further, rather I choosed to bury those conflicts in my heart.Not to mention, because of what I had suffered in my past,I never wanted to go through that phase again in my life.I was not ready to ask for anyone's attention or time or care or anything.
I surely wouldn't be writing this to you but for the sake of all those tiny moments of happiness,care and joy,I owe you a lot .As a matter of fact,you have unknowingly mended my wounds when I was alone struggling to know my worth .No words would be sufficient to describe how grateful I am.May be that's why i need you to know that everyone deserves to be loved.Out of anybody you surely does.And maybe I won't ask you for your opinion towards me as clearly you have already given me so much.Thus my attraction,these feelings ,these just came natural,and I can't be selfish to demand anymore from you .
For the sake of those moments when you made me feel so special,If in any way, I have ever mattered to you , please try and give life another chance.Trust me, you're ready to do better,you can make someone the luckiest person in this world and in return you too deserve your share to be loved.I will be happy to see you like that way,with me or without me , doesn't matter.Just promise that you will choose your someone special and live your life happily.Do this for yourself,Raj ,do this for me ,do this for us .
"After all the things we lose, have a way of coming back to us in the end".
The way I found my faith,my love in you,I'm sure you will find yours too.If there's a tiniest chance of that person could be me,then please let me know,and if not ,that will also be okay ,I don't mind,but you need to keep looking.And this time, promise me that, you will open your heart to it , promise me that you will keep the lights on.
With love,
Shanaya.
