I met this guy who was named, Gerald. He was my first crush back then, my first love. They said that it was a dream come true when we married.

" Hon, what time are you going home?" I asked

"I don't know, don't wait for me" he answered

"But it's our wedding anniversary" I'm broken here again

"I'm busy, go first to dinner" then he put down the line.
I looked at the dishes that I served.

who's going to eat this today? A bitter smile showed up on my face.


I sipped some wine trying to undress all the pain that I am dealing with. It's almost midnight and I stayed up all night waiting for him to come home but no Gerald showed up.
I woke up feeling like my stomach was getting dizzy, I went to the bathroom and threw up there.


" How much alcohol did you drink? If you commit suicide, alcohol won't work " I heard Gerald said who just arrived.


"Good morning" I greeted him ,wanting not to be bitter infront of him.

"My day is ruined" he said.


I stared at myself in the mirror, my face was so tired and pale but he didn't even care. I went out of the room to serve his breakfast.


"Hon, breakfast is ready" I shouted .


"Go ahead" he answered like he was so very irritated.

" Hon," I sweetly called him


" Can you just stop! I'm so tired. And please, stop calling me hon. In the first please I really didn't want to get married with you " he said it straight ' then hid his face under the pillow again.

By the way, that's why I'm married to the person whom didn't want to spend a life time with me. Im married because i want to save him from his debt of there company.

I turned to stop my tears from falling but I can't. I left the place full of pain in my chest it hurts wanting someone who didn't know your worth. Love is not blind.It's just you, who made yourself love the person making your own decision.

" Where are you going?" I asked when I saw him dressed up. He has his good built of body. His perfect jaw and a piercing eyes that makes me drown into it.

"Office" he answered with the full of sarcasm

"Take care, I'll wait for you to go home" I said trying to smile.

"You don't need to, I will go home whenever I want to" he said while the coldness from his voice is evident.


I smiled bitterly as he passed by infront of me.
I immediately dressed up when he got out of the house, I should follow him.


His car was parked at the front of a -- famous restaurant?

he can't even bring me to this kind of resto and what hurts is that he lied to me again.

I saw that he was with a beautiful woman and they are kissing!. I hid in the back of the car so he couldn't see and I started to call him. I felt my hand is shaking because of the anger that I was feeling.

💭 Hon, are you in the office?
💭 Yes, let's talk later, I'm busy
💭 Ok.

I pretended that I didn't see anything. I saw him smiling when the girl holds his hand, the smile he couldn't give me. If it's not a head heat he's getting cold to deal with me. In a few years I've been making myself a fool I heared his lies but I always think the bright sides.


"Oh, you're still awake" he said when he caught me lying on the sofa, it was obvious that he was drank with her girl because I smell it.

"Let's talk" I said and gave him a serious face, even though my heart was so broken, I tried to be courageous to talk to him.
" Why are you crying? Wipe your tears, you are not in a drama that you are watching!" he laughed at me.

I wipe my tears and began to calmed myself.


" Yes, I am not in a drama and if yes, I will change the script or the run of the story and choose to get married to you. Maybe I'll let you find yourself and save your company by your own self. I wish I didn't love you until I gave everything I could " straightly I said to him even though my tears was falling continuesly .

" I know you don't love me, Gerald. You don't have to fool me " I cried


"I didn't even hear from you the lines ' have you ate, are you ok, have you able to rest well ', in a few years we've been together" I still continue crying while letting go of those words from my mouth.

"I'm sorry" that is the only word that he said.

" Don't be sorry, let's stop pretending we're happy." I said as he walked towards me and tried to hold my hand but I put it away from him .


I stared at him straight, while my eyes were full of tears


"I'm pregnant"

" R-really?" He said like he can't believe it. The spark of his eyes is the evidence of happiness from him is what I saw.

My heart seems to jump, finally I saw his smile in front of me. He's so handsome and the way you smile is what I love to you.

I know that ever since you didn't love I'm stuck thinking about 'is it a love or lust' but I know that you didn't felt the same way as what I felt to you. the love they say? is not for us


"I already filed an annulment, Gerald" I said as I look away from him because I couldn't do what I wanted to happen for now. But this is the only way I know for us.


" What? How about the child? I will not allow it, that's my child " he opposed

" I won't treat you, but I don't want to live with all the lies. I'm tired of experiencing one-sided love, Gerald. I want you to be happy with a woman who truly makes you happy even if it hurts, because I love you " I said with a tear in my eyes ready to fell.

"Don't do this to me, I know I became selfish and I lost the time for me to love and care you" he said while wiping my tears using his palm.

" Is it a lie again? How many times will you lie huh?" I said as he turned and wrapped the place of silence.

"Let's spare each other, I'm so tired of dealing with your womanizing" I added , I saw him swallowed hardly and looked away from me.

" One-sided love will never be true love, hon." I smiled bitterly and spoke again

"Now, sign that annulment paper and be happy with someone else, please, be happy with my bestfriend."
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+ERRORS AHEAD
HI GUYS, IF EVER YOU ARE DEALING WITH ONE SIDED LOVE, REMEMBER WHAT THE BIBLE SAID ABOUT IT
"1 JOHN 4:7-12"
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