I messed up by letting you in, it's true,
Thought you deserved love, that's what I thought I knew,
But you saw it differently, a twisted view,
Believed I deserved punishment for loving you.

In my naivety, I showed up when you were hurt,
Thinking love could heal, mend your soul's dirt,
But little did I know, it would only make it worse,
I messed up, my heart now feeling a painful curse.

For I fell in love with an image that wasn't real,
Not what I truly got, but the mask you concealed,
And as I unraveled, my heart left to reel,
I messed up, blinded by love's intoxicating zeal.

But I also messed up by staying around so long,
In a toxic dance, where everything felt wrong,
Ignoring my own worth, my voice drowned in song,
I messed up, allowing my strength to be gone.

And I messed up by being there at my own expense,
Gave my all, while you took without recompense,
My love, like an anchor, holding you in your defense,
I messed up, losing myself in your pretense.

But now I realize, as I watch over you,
That in losing myself, I found a lesson true,
To prioritize my heart, its value and its due,
I messed up, but now, I rise from the residue.

For I deserve a love that's honest and pure,
A love that uplifts, not one that aims to obscure,
No longer will I let my heart endure,
I messed up, but now my strength is assured.

So, I'll learn from my errors, grow and evolve,
Find a love that nurtures, where my heart can resolve,
I messed up, but through it all, I'll absolve,
And build a brighter future, where true love will evolve.
© cynfully