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LITERALLY MY LIFE
LACK OF A FATHER'S LOVE
I always hear people say "a father's love is the most amazing thing a girl could ever have," well I didn't have that. I didn't see the face my dad until I was seven years old, his love didn't exist in my world and still isn't. I'll just say we are just friends at this point, just a little hi or bye and that's all .
Not having my father in my life affected me in a way but it also built me, because now I know the qualities I need to look for in a man before going into a relationship.
I wouldn't call myself a jealous person but I guess I have to now, I was jealous of seeing my friends dad hugging and kissing them and it always made me cry. Thinking back to middle school days, whenever I was told to write a letter to my dad I would always use my mom's name, you see my mom's name is Andrea so I just wrote dear Andre. Andre is my dad, my mom is my dad and I am proud to say that I was raised by her, I had my mom so I didn't need a man in my life, well not at this point.
THE BEGINNING
When I was in the seventh grade I had guys over me like crazy, I turned down most of them because all they wanted was a relationship and I didn't want that. I had a crush on a guy who was in the ninth grade, this means that he was three years older than me. If only I knew that he had feelings for me too, oh boy, I couldn't focus most of the time in class because when ever he walked passed my classroom my head would fly through the window, its like I couldn't get this boy out of my head I was going crazy. This boy was the cousin of my friend Kyla, so all I had to do was ask her to to introduce us to each other. Well it happened, I talked to my crush for first time, he told me that his name was Rico and he asked for my number, I was over the moon everything was going perfectly.
After days and weeks of getting to know each other Rico started to wait for me after school, we held hands, hugged and chat, regular things that teenagers do. We took the bus home together and he would put his hand around my shoulder or around my waist, but this made me uncomfortable so I would remove his hand plus it was inappropriate.
Rico gave off that bad boy vibe which would often cause me and my friends to get into arguments. Now my mom didn't know a thing about Rico, but my friends did and tried their best just to prevent my mom from getting any knowledge about him.
But one day after I came from school i heard my mom calling me, I thought she was calling me to do something in the kitchen but instead she showed me her phone. Her phone was sitting on the counter...
I always hear people say "a father's love is the most amazing thing a girl could ever have," well I didn't have that. I didn't see the face my dad until I was seven years old, his love didn't exist in my world and still isn't. I'll just say we are just friends at this point, just a little hi or bye and that's all .
Not having my father in my life affected me in a way but it also built me, because now I know the qualities I need to look for in a man before going into a relationship.
I wouldn't call myself a jealous person but I guess I have to now, I was jealous of seeing my friends dad hugging and kissing them and it always made me cry. Thinking back to middle school days, whenever I was told to write a letter to my dad I would always use my mom's name, you see my mom's name is Andrea so I just wrote dear Andre. Andre is my dad, my mom is my dad and I am proud to say that I was raised by her, I had my mom so I didn't need a man in my life, well not at this point.
THE BEGINNING
When I was in the seventh grade I had guys over me like crazy, I turned down most of them because all they wanted was a relationship and I didn't want that. I had a crush on a guy who was in the ninth grade, this means that he was three years older than me. If only I knew that he had feelings for me too, oh boy, I couldn't focus most of the time in class because when ever he walked passed my classroom my head would fly through the window, its like I couldn't get this boy out of my head I was going crazy. This boy was the cousin of my friend Kyla, so all I had to do was ask her to to introduce us to each other. Well it happened, I talked to my crush for first time, he told me that his name was Rico and he asked for my number, I was over the moon everything was going perfectly.
After days and weeks of getting to know each other Rico started to wait for me after school, we held hands, hugged and chat, regular things that teenagers do. We took the bus home together and he would put his hand around my shoulder or around my waist, but this made me uncomfortable so I would remove his hand plus it was inappropriate.
Rico gave off that bad boy vibe which would often cause me and my friends to get into arguments. Now my mom didn't know a thing about Rico, but my friends did and tried their best just to prevent my mom from getting any knowledge about him.
But one day after I came from school i heard my mom calling me, I thought she was calling me to do something in the kitchen but instead she showed me her phone. Her phone was sitting on the counter...
