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The birds were chirping in the last days of spring while I wanted to just stay in bed but didn't wanted to miss my favorite lecture either .I was getting ready combing my hair while a thought was lingering in my mind I smiled slyly and looked at my reflection in the mirror.

" I look so perfect "

Every one at school thinks of me as the perfect girl who does everything right but little did they knew about my little secret .......
I didn't wanted to miss today's class and add a scratch to my perfect life. My life is just perfect in my point of view.I would never want to ruin it knowing how much difficult it is to have a life like me .Walking to my College I saw my late bestfriend's Friends across the streets.

" Pathetic bitches " I whispered

Not bestfriend but ex-bestfriend her name Eva and Me Lore we were together since childhood but a crack in glass is enough to make it shatter that was how our friend ship ended.If I said I found something I shouldn't it would be wrong cause even after all this it was still worth it .

" Man I really wanna use it right now "

I said as I saw a book lying on the road I took it and it looked quite good and possibly would make a reasonable amount
if I put it inside "it" . I walked around a bit in search of a public bathroom and took out a box from my bag , putting the book inside" it"as I closed it and waited 1 minute and opened it again . As I took out the money in the box along with " the letter " I found this box not too long ago when i went hiking in the mountains on a holiday. The coldness in the bathroom making me shiver or was it the box I am so creeped out because of, I went home and took the box with me but I found myself putting my glasses in the box it was almost like the box was luring me to do so. As time went by I needed my glasses so I went to take my glasses but when I opened it I found money instead of glasses and a letter which looked pretty weird to look at as the letter was folded and there was written MOM in red coloured ink which gave me shivers but the money inside was pleasing enough for me to take it. Not forgetting to read the letter as my curiosity won't let me keep my hands away from that letter I opened the letter realizing I soon started crying the letter was creepy the handwriting it belonged to my mom but the words didn't it was odd how every thing written looked like my mom hated me all her life .
Letter

" i don't know why she Is like that I never wanted her in the first place I don't know why I had a kid like her in the first place such a disappointment I should have never had a kid after my beautiful daughter ( Lore's elder sister ) every thing we had just started to disappear as soon as she came in our lives .Our life could have been much better if she had just died " Should I just throw her somewhere I can't possibly keep feeding her when she is of no use to me

I realized this might just be something like a prank, at least I hoped for it to be .

And that was how I gained a letter every time I put inside something in that box the money was pleasing but the letters always made my heart ache I tried not to read them but after a while I realized that those letters were indeed true one by one I got letters about almost every one like my dad,sister,favorite teachers,crushes, friends and some other peoples as my mom abandoned me near a bus station with a pair of jewelry and told me to survive on my own while my mind was blank and face emotionless as if I myself was prepared

" I didn't knew the things that are pleasing can me heart breaking too"

The letter indeed was true. Then I knew it no one would care. As I stood there while the rain started I had no choice but to get wet and somehow make it to Eva's house at least but it was almost like I was dragging my feets they won't budge even though the rain water was cold even though every thing hurted even though i was broken even though I thought about dying. People would just pass by not giving a damn about a person in the middle of the road soaking in water but they did judge me more than anything else I realized people will eventually leave my side one day and I should be prepared for that before I make any hasty decisions about something like friendship or love . Afterall this the box was the only thing which I could make a living out of but what can I even put inside it the jewelry my mom gave me was a fake one and the money I got wasn't enough to even call a taxi my phone was important so I couldn't possibly put it inside so if I don't have anything so the best thing I thought was to steal. Every thing was okay because my bestfriend Eva would help me out even let me stay at her house cause I couldn't afford to just buy an apartment and immediately get a job cause I had no experience neither intelligence I thought my life was perfect when did things start to go wrong but my last hope was gone with another letter Which was marked as EVA I could not bring myself to open it I felt scared I was afraid that the last person I can trust right now will also go away but my mind would keep going to one question if she hated me why is she tolerating me in her house we weren't even blood related she could have simply kicked me out what was that thing holding her back from doing so.I opened the letter and started reading it I could feel hot tears streaming down my cheeks as I couldn't hold them back anymore I watched myself crying non - stop from the Pain I was feeling right now the only person I ever had just was not the person I thought she was I could have never noticed it the way she hated me all this time felt some how amusing knowing she would take care of me all the time .

Letter

" I don't know about being in friendship with her she is so shameless my friends told me she was kicked out because she was a slut and would always be gone at nights I never knew but she just shamelessly came here I hate her I wish I never met her I can't even kick her out as my friends told me not to or she would call one of her sugar daddy to save her what a whore. Can't she just die whose life does she want to ruin more I thought she was an innocent girl I feel disgusted even when she comes near me. I hope she just dies.....

My voice was trembling I couldn't say anything cause I was afraid she would say it on my face and it would become more hard to believe the letter is not true I thought at least some one loved me at least liked me enough to care about me but life is just a bitch but looking at myself I feel disgusted remembering how many lives I have taken with a smile on my face like a psycho.
" At least she thought I'm a Whore when I am Worse..........."

Flash back

I found the box way before and was busy killing people and putting there body's pieces inside it. my family found out about my weird obsession with a box they tried to take it away from me but remembering the letter about my mom I weirdly felt I would care less if she just died right now in front of me BY ME I stabbed her to death and started putting her body pieces one by one in the box and the letters they seemed like a peaceful poems to me now i even killed my father and sister and made it look like all that happened after they abandon me as I got up and took everything and went to Eva's house as she knew nothing about the box and possibly didn't hate me little did I knew. I never got any letter about Eva so I assumed that she loved me . My friend was just a pawn for me to kill one day when I had no body to kill .

Present

Did you realize a Psychopath being sly is really not a good thing cause looking at my past I realized how Pathetic my present could have been if I didn't choose this path...

" I thought you were smart enough to not mess with me I thought you loved me"

I stood up and went to her room and knocked on her door waiting for her to open it and she did

" Hi I noticed you were looking a little sad today did something happen "

I asked her trying my best to not sound suspicious and trying to hide my smile

" Oh nothing come inside " she said

" So you sure nothing happened " I said

" No but why do you think I look sad " she said

" Nothing just a hunch ..... do you know Eva " I said

" What ? and don't you think you are acting a bit weird " she said

ONLY IF SHE KNEW WHAT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN NEXT......

As she stood up I grabbed her and I sliced her neck and closed her mouth so she won't make any sound. only if she knew how much I loved her but isn't this for the best...she was an orphan anyway no one would notice as I whispered in her ears.

YOU

ARE

DEAD

SWEET HEART.......

Her eyes widened and she tried to get away from me and she did get away while doing her best to stay awake knowing she would die if she didn't.

" Isn't that just useless sweetheart "

I said while giving her a psychotic smile

" I fucking knew it you bitch"

She said while she took out a small knife from her back pockets

" Aww look how sweet this looks you know every thing about me how cute but you know Eva I have enough experience to get out of this like should I burn down the whole building "

I stated excitedly making her look at me as if I'm a psycho well I am a Psycho...

" Why me "

She said as tears fell down from her eyes

" You aren't special to say that you hated me too admit it how long are you going to play dumb like this"

I took a sit on the couch while speaking as she held on the knife more tightly thinking I am going to try something on her

" It's that shitty box right "

She said as my eyes went blank

" How do you know that "

She smirked as she knew she found something against me

" That's not important right now you know-"

She went quiet as I laughed so loudly like nothing serious is happening there

" You think you found out something important well did you forgot that there's a fucking cut on your neck which is eventually going to bleed out and and then you Die...."

I stated but she didn't react

" What if I upload a video of you murdering your family "

I stopped laughing

" You think you can do that while I am right here. You have no one so don't try to give me some empty threats to get away Well I am kind of curious to know how you found that out as I know damn well how good I am at erasing evidence so I am sure you have no evidence so speak up before I rip you apart sooner "

I stated thinking she has no one as she never got a chance to date or hang out with people make best friends even if she had friends she would just call them her friends but they just exchange books sometimes never even talked that long except for me who was with her from the start

" That's what I'm saying Lore i have no one you were my only friend supporter and every thing I had was you how could I possibly hate you it's that shitty box right and I don't know anything about you murdering your parents it was just a wild guess you know I love you no matter what right let's just stop this and act like nothing happened ok I love you and you know that Lore"

Her words are like empty words of kindness to me now knowing her true face and still surrendering to her would be a act of foolishness.

" Wow you are totally believable right you know what Eva I take no one's shit you love me stop lying love may be blind but it's not just straight up your anytime bullshit you are trying to rub on to me why would you even try to lie to me right on my face is that what you think of me well when you lie at least try to lose your grip on that knife to make it a little more believable but you know what some people deserve death and I'm here for it...."



I threw the flowerpot besides me straight on her head as she fainted I have some serious skills right there.
As soon as she died I started cutting her. I couldn't blink as the scene was soo pleasing I gave her a special cutting session as she was special just like my parents taking my sweet time opening her every organ and putting it inside the box like what I was doing was totally normal in every way possible she should have known better to not play any games on me I messed up the room threw her clothes on the ground and cleaned up the blood but leaving some blood behind and shifted everything that belonged to me to my new Apartment and threw some clothes which belonged to a boy I killed a night before this with an ID card that belonged to him making it look like she had a boyfriend and some things happened making me look like a savior and the suspicion would probably go to that non existing boyfriend I called police and told them that my classmate went missing

" H-Help me s-sir "

"Don't worry we are police we will help you don't panic and tell us what happened there"

" I don't know sir I came to one of my classmate's Apartment but when I came here s-sh-she isn't here there is blood I don't know what is happening here- "

I cut the call making it look like someone forcefully made me do it. As no one knew about my friend ship with her not even her other friends. It was pointless to try to search anything against me cause I still had the first ever letter the one with my mom's name on it. I could possibly show it to them knowing the handwriting is similar and they would totally believe me while they will never reach my parents knowing they are DEAD......

I watched them panic as they entered inside the apartment. I watched them from the building besides them. I was having fun watching this drama,I created while sipping on my wine I love how things are going just 20 years old and the whole city is now probably scared and terrified because of me they panicked more as they couldn't find me i laughed as the sight was so funny their scared faces looking at the blood with no body near it was just too funny for me they kept going around here and there as if they would find something I mean how could they the cameras were destroyed like two hours ago no one saw me enter that building nor saw me leave how could they possibly find me no finger prints not even a strand of hair was left that they could continue their search from it was almost like I didn't exist in her life

" You realize people don't really care about you as they leave you hanging "

" People are like a bowl of emotions they have to constantly use the emotions in the bowl in ways like crying anger or joy but the bowl keeps adding emotions if you don't use them they start to use you .The emotions will try to get out of the bowls in different ways like desire to DIE or desire to KILL.."

" Don't you think a Psycho deserves a good ending...."

" Cause every eyes that have ever been laid on my body are always the one inside my house begging for theirs to be saved "

I wondered a lot about how this box is made or where did it came from but I bet the one who made it could have never imagined that someone would use it the way I am using it.............


© Nirjala lobhi