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Heartbreak December(Chapter 10-Heartbreak December)
After an hour of consoling and cajoling, Den finally got Bisar out of depression and he himself went out of Bisar's place and he went to his one bedroom apartment, once he had caved in comfortably, he turned the lights off and he lay down to sleep, but somehow sleep was not really reachable at the moment for him, he was hearing a cacaphony of voices inside his head, one was playing drums, one was rapping about mindless, senseless stuff, a girl was yapping about something silly, and old man was smoking a cigar and was mowing his lawn, "AARGH!", he turned the lights back on but nothing became better, the voices remained but it was like someone had just turned the volume a notch down........
As he buried his hand into his palms, memories flashed past, his mom and his dad's quarrels, the death of his grandpa, the death of his nanna, mom and dad's deaths on that flight, him and his sister living on welfare, his sister getting raped and killed in the BLM riots, him going to the rehabilitation centre etc...
All the trauma that he had been holding in for years had finally come out before his very own eyes.. He had been hiding this from even himself, none of his journals ever contained any remote hint of all this, but everything was just so unbelievable now that he had come to this, he had transformed his life and gotten admission in a reputed college, he had money to pay for college, but he still wasn't comfortable living life, all alone. He knew Ella loved him one way or another but the magnitude to which he loved her, she had no idea of that.
He couldn't really explain what it was like to sit there every day, feeling empty, doing someone else's bidding,getting paid for it....
He was really depressed now and he needed something to get rid of this, and the only source he knew was drugs, a lot of it, he knew Tony Montana, also known as Tony Yayo, yayo being the slang word for cocaine, but Montana dealt acid and meth, first thing in the morning that Den did was ring him up and order a bag of weed, also a kilo of meth and some LSD.......
He started smoking at about 12 in the afternoon, he had to numb this dumb feeling somehow, he cooked some meth, he took some of it, it still was just getting him high, LSD hit the right spot for him, it just was like a metaphor for the pain cause it felt like he was going crazy, he also had some shrooms left from the time he wasn't sober and he tried them, however in the process of trying the acid he got a bit carried away, also he was mixing meth and acid and it was getting serious but his body had handled worse, it was tame for him, he thought, suddenly at 4 in the evening a doorbell rang, he was injecting some heroine, he threw away the syringe and in a dragging gaut he opened the door, "Hi Ella!That's really a pleas...The World sway before his eyes, he remembered the last thing which he saw was Ella hurrying towards him and clutching him concernedly, he remembered saying, "I'm fine honey trust meeeeee", before it all went pitch black for him......
20 years later
Zach went into the meditation room again for the third time this day, his mind was wandering senselessly well today, actually his wife Marie and their daughter Hailie had decided to join him in the Mayavati Ashram of the Seviers, he hadn't seen them in six months and now they were here, leading a spiritual life, he still hadn't felt God, but he felt a pure wave of positivity flow all around the Himalayas, he breathed again, no he must concentrate on his breath he thought....
Anna looked longingly at Bisar, "Hon, can't we go to Hawai this December?", "We sure can honey", said Bisar, he was correcting a Spywire code, it was basic Cyber security, Spywire was a good language for people interested in spying on others without leaving a trace, because it burnt the wire that it used to get to the target machine. Anna and Bisar were married happily for fifteen years , they had a son named Denezius Abraham Hektro, he was a real trouble maker....
Ella put a garland made of orchids around the picture potrait of Denezius, today was his 20th death anniversary, she still used to cry every year this day came, she had lost one of her closest associates and partner that day, that fateful day of 8th December will always continue to torment her for the rest of her life, she could never move on from Den, the way he had interested her in a short while and the kindness he had, the romanticism of everything she had, the incessant lover boy simp emotions which he emanated were adorable according to her, she had loved him truly but sometimes December the season of Christ, the season of love and warmth brings death and destruction in one's life, but she still hoped to meet him in heaven, her heart filled with misery at the thought of going to college again, the same classroom, same students, nothing dynamic, her life was stagnated by nothingness and nihilism.....
One day she had a dream about Den and in that dream he had hugged her tightly and said, "Life goes on honey life goes on....."
The end
Dedicated to:-
Abishkar Chaterjee aka Bisar Hektro, friend and rooter since day one
Subhayaan "Zacharius" Paul fellow Beatlemaniac and soulmate
Esha Bhattacharya as Ella Bancroft, college sweetheart,good friend and reality check
Angana Mondal as Anne Morris, close acquaintance and ardent reader
Arkaprova Das as Abkortas Iglesias, the sleeping lion always and forever, the main source of inspiration, one of the smartest guys I've met, the most spiritual person ever, energy personified, endurance personified, love you bro
Faisal Rahman as Feige Cohen, childhood friend
Tasneem Eqra Fatma as Triny Gonzalez, childhood love and the one who gave me my Heart break December
Riya Naskar as Leia Nkteiah, Faisal's girlfriend and a close associate
Grace Shania Singh as Grace, my teenage crush
Snehasish Kunti sir as Mr Smith, the reason I'm studying BSc Computer Science right now
Aishik Basu as Asikius the person who always asked for my advice in love and who would become the future house captain for Buntain house
Also dedicated to:- Bikram Das, Soumyajit Sen, Swambhab Mullick, Rohan Banerjee, Shuvradeep Roy, Arihant Bararia, Ayan Judah Biswas, Ahana Das,Anirban Chakraborty, Ritwik Nag, Abhishek Roy, Suvranil Dutta Biswas, Dyuti Ghosh, Sreejit Panda, Deboshmita Dhar, Tamanna De, Shreeja Dasgupta, Shirshak Dey, Debdeep Ghosh, Abdul Khizar, Rajshekhar Panja, Debneel Roy, Rohan Bose, Aishik Maity, Shamilli Tekutte, Ritwika Bhowmick
© Dhritiman
As he buried his hand into his palms, memories flashed past, his mom and his dad's quarrels, the death of his grandpa, the death of his nanna, mom and dad's deaths on that flight, him and his sister living on welfare, his sister getting raped and killed in the BLM riots, him going to the rehabilitation centre etc...
All the trauma that he had been holding in for years had finally come out before his very own eyes.. He had been hiding this from even himself, none of his journals ever contained any remote hint of all this, but everything was just so unbelievable now that he had come to this, he had transformed his life and gotten admission in a reputed college, he had money to pay for college, but he still wasn't comfortable living life, all alone. He knew Ella loved him one way or another but the magnitude to which he loved her, she had no idea of that.
He couldn't really explain what it was like to sit there every day, feeling empty, doing someone else's bidding,getting paid for it....
He was really depressed now and he needed something to get rid of this, and the only source he knew was drugs, a lot of it, he knew Tony Montana, also known as Tony Yayo, yayo being the slang word for cocaine, but Montana dealt acid and meth, first thing in the morning that Den did was ring him up and order a bag of weed, also a kilo of meth and some LSD.......
He started smoking at about 12 in the afternoon, he had to numb this dumb feeling somehow, he cooked some meth, he took some of it, it still was just getting him high, LSD hit the right spot for him, it just was like a metaphor for the pain cause it felt like he was going crazy, he also had some shrooms left from the time he wasn't sober and he tried them, however in the process of trying the acid he got a bit carried away, also he was mixing meth and acid and it was getting serious but his body had handled worse, it was tame for him, he thought, suddenly at 4 in the evening a doorbell rang, he was injecting some heroine, he threw away the syringe and in a dragging gaut he opened the door, "Hi Ella!That's really a pleas...The World sway before his eyes, he remembered the last thing which he saw was Ella hurrying towards him and clutching him concernedly, he remembered saying, "I'm fine honey trust meeeeee", before it all went pitch black for him......
20 years later
Zach went into the meditation room again for the third time this day, his mind was wandering senselessly well today, actually his wife Marie and their daughter Hailie had decided to join him in the Mayavati Ashram of the Seviers, he hadn't seen them in six months and now they were here, leading a spiritual life, he still hadn't felt God, but he felt a pure wave of positivity flow all around the Himalayas, he breathed again, no he must concentrate on his breath he thought....
Anna looked longingly at Bisar, "Hon, can't we go to Hawai this December?", "We sure can honey", said Bisar, he was correcting a Spywire code, it was basic Cyber security, Spywire was a good language for people interested in spying on others without leaving a trace, because it burnt the wire that it used to get to the target machine. Anna and Bisar were married happily for fifteen years , they had a son named Denezius Abraham Hektro, he was a real trouble maker....
Ella put a garland made of orchids around the picture potrait of Denezius, today was his 20th death anniversary, she still used to cry every year this day came, she had lost one of her closest associates and partner that day, that fateful day of 8th December will always continue to torment her for the rest of her life, she could never move on from Den, the way he had interested her in a short while and the kindness he had, the romanticism of everything she had, the incessant lover boy simp emotions which he emanated were adorable according to her, she had loved him truly but sometimes December the season of Christ, the season of love and warmth brings death and destruction in one's life, but she still hoped to meet him in heaven, her heart filled with misery at the thought of going to college again, the same classroom, same students, nothing dynamic, her life was stagnated by nothingness and nihilism.....
One day she had a dream about Den and in that dream he had hugged her tightly and said, "Life goes on honey life goes on....."
The end
Dedicated to:-
Abishkar Chaterjee aka Bisar Hektro, friend and rooter since day one
Subhayaan "Zacharius" Paul fellow Beatlemaniac and soulmate
Esha Bhattacharya as Ella Bancroft, college sweetheart,good friend and reality check
Angana Mondal as Anne Morris, close acquaintance and ardent reader
Arkaprova Das as Abkortas Iglesias, the sleeping lion always and forever, the main source of inspiration, one of the smartest guys I've met, the most spiritual person ever, energy personified, endurance personified, love you bro
Faisal Rahman as Feige Cohen, childhood friend
Tasneem Eqra Fatma as Triny Gonzalez, childhood love and the one who gave me my Heart break December
Riya Naskar as Leia Nkteiah, Faisal's girlfriend and a close associate
Grace Shania Singh as Grace, my teenage crush
Snehasish Kunti sir as Mr Smith, the reason I'm studying BSc Computer Science right now
Aishik Basu as Asikius the person who always asked for my advice in love and who would become the future house captain for Buntain house
Also dedicated to:- Bikram Das, Soumyajit Sen, Swambhab Mullick, Rohan Banerjee, Shuvradeep Roy, Arihant Bararia, Ayan Judah Biswas, Ahana Das,Anirban Chakraborty, Ritwik Nag, Abhishek Roy, Suvranil Dutta Biswas, Dyuti Ghosh, Sreejit Panda, Deboshmita Dhar, Tamanna De, Shreeja Dasgupta, Shirshak Dey, Debdeep Ghosh, Abdul Khizar, Rajshekhar Panja, Debneel Roy, Rohan Bose, Aishik Maity, Shamilli Tekutte, Ritwika Bhowmick
© Dhritiman
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