Papa asked me to join him in his studies for tea. When I went to serve,He pointed at the chair and asked to sit .I guess he noticed my silence. I knew that he was going to shower some gems of wisdom today .
"Looks like you are not taking care of yourself" He stared conversation.
"No Papa.. I take care of myself well"
" Is every thing good at school"
"Yeah Papa,All is well ..There is nothing to worry about "I tried to convince him.
" Then what is bothering you.. is there any thing happened at home which I am not aware of? He asked
" Nothing like that...I don't know..I am feeling like I am lacking behind somewhere..
Life was so easy..but now it is not like that.." I tried to express my feelings.
"It happens Life never comes in same mode again.." He said
"Some unsaid, unexpressable emptiness is hovering over mind...I am in search of peace." I wanted to cry ..but successfully controlled myself.
" It is natural..We feel happy in a moment and another moment we feel empty .We can feel alone in the crowd... " Papa was right there I asked
"What to do to overcome that feeling then?"
"We need to spare some me time .. Spare some time for yourself.. spend time in doing what you like to do " He suggested.
"In my life , One lesson I have learnt is that it is impossible to always be in a good mood, sometimes we will feel low and that is completely fine, what matters is how we talk to ourself on the days we feel low and how can be patient and wait for the good feelings to come back again. Try to follow and you will notice the change "
I nodded silently.
"Beta,Life is a rollercoaster full of ups and downs, accept this truth and you will find peace."
"I will try... "
"I want my smiling doll back "
"Sure Papa ..Thank you ..I appreciate how you notice small details of everyone in the family."
And I came back from his room after receiving the gems in my precious collection.

© Geeta Dhulia