Short story time about the pull of love helping to find, our path, our way, our home sweet home, trusting in my God to place me in the place that's filled with love. My God I have been waiting reading signs anticipating your appearance and when you come you leave too soon it's unjustified debating but Lord of mine my only trustee I'll be waiting without you there's nothing without you I'm not thinking, or seeing I'm hurt barely breathing I'm pleading forgiveness I'm learning my lessons I'm seeing the souls as they come in thru in discression I'm giving up on this world it's ugly never endin, devils in my face with smiles pretending, he's blocking my moves so I swerve and I turn dipping and dodging please father God get rid of this problem, help me to solve it, please set me free from their deceitful evil thoughts, not really understanding how I became part of this plot, woke up in a haze after 6 times getting shot, I was different the world was too, can't describe the feeling other then confused and what to do, but also felt lighter like I was floating not walking felt alert like my eyes had finally been opened, analyzing my life to fix what was broken, making sense of the empty inside me, I'm hoping to find fulfillment or some kind of purpose, wasnt all that suppose to quit all of this hurtin, they're clueless not helpful they lead me astray in the dark I've been wandering just walking by faith, so I pray and I seek for the One who can find me and take me to freedom before I fade away trying.