she woke up, barely slept the night. she doesn't remember the last time she had her full sleep. she rolled over to the her left side and stared at the empty space. she slowly stretched her arms feeling the early morning breeze as if the fall wind had blast it's coldest blow into her fingers as she caress the empty sheets.

Mornings are dreadful to her, as she opened her eyes wanting to close them again to not see the reality of her new life alone again. Hot liquid trickled down her face like it didn't happened for the past few weeks. It has been an uncontrollable and unconsolable pain she felt when he left. she sometimes understand whether she felt everything or nothing at all. There were times she wants to go away somewhere where no one ever went to, no one ever dared to go to, somewhere else but not where she lays with her heavy heart. Not there where her mind sees everything as if He's there consuming oxygen and using more space in her life.

The sea of why's clouded her vision and weakened her arms feeling drowned by her unanswered questions. Her crackled voice is what she can muster to shout. She wished she has also the voice and the strength to cry out loud but even those were robbed from her. Feeling defeated she closed her eyes and let her mind take her wandering into a world she will never be hers. The only tears left for her to cry dried up as if she is not allowed to have, have also abandoned her.

she knew she will never be the same again, cause he left with nothing but everything.


© anne