Right now it's 16:45pm, on a Saturday, normally I'm out with my friends or being productive but I'm literally just lay here mascara running down my cheeks a pain in my heart and a whole swarming cloud of thoughts filling my mind. Today I got let down by my best friend again, we were meant to go shopping but she wants to spend time with her boyfriend again, this is the second time in a row I've been cancelled on by her, I miss mine and hers old conversations and hangouts where we would go out and do stupid things and take selfies and videos together but now I feel like I'm losing everyone and everything around me.
I miss my ex, and the way he would reassure me that I would get through all the hard times and that he was there for me, but now... Well he's found someone better.
That's always the case with me, I get used and threw away like a used tissue.
I let people cry on my shoulder and give them advice and then they throw me away like nothing happened, I solve peoples problems, even though I can't even solve my own and all I do is get let down. I'm losing myself again and this time I can't be bothered to piece myself back together.
© Ezz