I find myself at a lost for words or thought lately. This isn't like me even if it a takes a smoke or a bottle or two I usually get my balance. Lately I'm tired and frustrated all the time. That's not like me I usually find ample time for R&R rest and reconnection. Lately it feels as if I'm in the matrix and I'm fully aware of it but just can't seem get out. No elation has seem to soothe my soul......... is it money?, sex?, drugs? I dont even recognize myself anymore