Hey! Knock! Knock! I don't know where to start. It is just that I have to reach anywhere. As the right thoughts come to me, I embark on my journey. I don't know where it will lead me.

I still love you, but I now realize how it feels to be surprised by someone personal to you. I think I don't know the person well yet. I thought I understood her as a person well enough, only to discover that we don't connect well on this journey.

If you jump into an expedition where many people don't dither, there is no greatness ahead of you. Trust me.

That is a noteworthy difference. Authoring happens if you like it. I am part of the unsolved puzzle, some sort of riddle, still waiting to be solved by no one else but myself! However, when I know I have not accumulated enough of what I should have by now, how would I solve this puzzle?

A hard-to-solve riddle is not a misfit; think out of the box, and you will get it.

It made a puzzle out of the many small differences. Change is constant, but the constant isn't changing itself in the face of the ever-changing, ever-disturbing circumstances...

There is a mismatch of wavelengths. Hey, wait for a second; I think I might get glued to the adorable personality that this one is carrying well. I have heard a lot about the heavens. I wonder what it would be like to see the unseen, the unknown, and the uncertain.

When I reach that unknown place, an endless destination, that will be a new beginning for me. I don't know what everything will look like or what to expect in the place I will have to land myself. Right now, I can just say that I am under tremendous pressure at work and I am in awe of everything that has happened, but I have new hopes, new dreams, and new courage as my companions on my journey.

I know I am still carrying the baggage of my familiar past, but it's okay for a while, as I will manage everything when I meet my destined one. Once I reach my destination on a snowy evening that I am still quite unfamiliar with, I believe I'm gonna be okay. And the pace at which I am going, although the journey is long and tedious, everything seems like a song that I can sing throughout the way with no worries or without giving airs to whether I am right or wrong in the long run, which seems shorter than it is; that's another thing that I can vouch for safely.

I realize as I mature as an individual on this journey of self-discovery that it is certainly the theory of relativity that makes things seem worse or better for anyone and anything. All thanks to the universal energy that surrounds me, I noticed this critical truth sooner rather than later.

Sometimes I feel I am at a crossroads. Sometimes I have to stay here for a little longer than forever.

I don't know why this thought crossed my mind today. I understand what I should not do, but this thought comes to me as I think about how to write better as a writer. I suppose "everything happens for a reason," and that is not a vague statement. Sorry, I realized everything after connecting the dots of the past with the present, and I'm only writing now after experiencing everything...

I should stop being a spoilsport now. I guess this is the right time to take the right steps in the right direction in my life, and it is still not the end of the world for me and, of course, not for my journey.

A lot awaits me on this journey; a lot can be achieved by my will as well, and that fire that is within me that cannot be extinguished except by me and that cannot be suppressed externally, I believe, will certainly help me. I'm fired right now, whether I asked for it or not, that does not bother me.

The very me is taken aback by the discovery of the new me. The fire in my belly for aspects where I reign not supreme will undoubtedly take me to new heights, and I shall meet the one who is unlike me, but still a lot like me in aspects, both known and unknown to me in my conscious mind (the tip of the iceberg when talking about human beings.)

The desire to know may worsen. The reverse of my expectation possesses all possibilities to take shape and happen, as it is the extraneous variable (wind) that controls a lot of the flowing fire. The wind might have an upper hand in the fire's course and reverse its direction and enhance its speed, turning me into ashes within a split second.

Firefly may not realize it always carries the element of light within, but that does not mean it lacks light and is blind to anything and everything that stands in its way of achieving. I know little about the achievements. I have had them in the past, but I believe I cannot call them my own, for various reasons on my part.

All my reasons are no reasons at all. As I write this, tears fill my eyes, and I feel that is the reason the words on my page are blurry now. As soon as I feel safe and closest to my existence again, I will sink deep into my comfort zone with no external aid.

Many things will not go your way completely. Things might go as you don't wish them to in your life, but do as you feel you should do and see the results for yourself. Keep an eye out for unexpected events in the coming stages of your life.

In the end, you will be more satisfied than you were throughout your life.


© Bikramjit Sen